Let's be nothing, because nothing lasts forever.

Vegetables

2012-02-12T18:37:00.002+08:00

I always worry that I'm not taking in enough vegetables.

I think I don't have a reason to worry anymore.

Every weekend, my mother makes up a whole pot of watercress soup.
I LOVE WATERCRESS SOUP, so about 1/4 of the pot is drunk up by me.

I eat all the vegetables too.

I can go for more soup and vegetables, but my mother always stops me.
So actually, I think I do take in enough (or heck, MORE than enough) vegetables :)

Now I just need to hit the gym more often and eat less junk food.

Irish toast

2012-02-12T10:20:00.008+08:00

How is EVERYONE? :)

I've been listening to Dear Vienna and Early Birdie by Owl City on repeat for a while now.

And because I love to share what makes me happy so it will make others happy too:
http://youtu.be/PhduFe8u-CM (Dear Vienna - Owl City)
I love how the little instrumental bit that's just going on in the song gets its own solo from 1:55 to 2:10. I luvvvv that instrumental bit.

I was talking with Dorothy about how irrelevant Maths is to me.
I cannot see myself ever telling anyone, EVER,
"Hey um, meet you at 2pm at the MRT station at the spot where the angle of elevation is 591 degrees k? AT THAT EXACT SPOT K?"

NEVER, I'll never say something like that.
SO WHY AM I LEARNING THINGS LIKE THAT???? WHY???

On a side note, this song ALWAYS makes me happy. It's got a very NDP feel like, if you ask me, but I love it nonethelesssss.

Also, I finally got around to buying a tub of Clusterfluff ice cream from Ben & Jerry's! :)

If you need me, I'll be listening to music, embracing my fats, dreading Monday and doing Maths. (Yes, in this particular order.)
(Yes, yes, I have a Maths test tomorrow so that makes Monday all the more dread-worthy and makes me not want to do Maths even more.)

Also, R.I.P Whitney Houston. You will be missed :(

This is a completely safe experimental setup

2012-02-05T22:10:00.005+08:00

My face when it comes to studying Chemistry. (Honestly, I think there's no one more stupid than me, I spent FOUR hours on one topic (SALTS) and I only understand HALF of it. And I've been learning this chapter since LAST YEAR.)

Good luck to everyone for the Chemistry test tmrw~

Carbohydrates, fats, proteins

2012-02-04T09:05:00.002+08:00

When you're on a diet (or when you're planning to be on one (LIKE ME, JUST THAT I HAVEN'T REALLY STARTED) it doesn't matter whether you cut down on your fats, proteins or carbs, it only matters if you reduce your caloric intake in total. So you can eat like all the bread you want in a day and all the fish you want in a day and all the fried prawns you want in a day and it doesn't matter!! Just cut down your caloric intake.

I read that somewhere in the newspapers this week.

Went to the doctor twice this week, first time on Thursday (missed school cos my stomach was hurtinggdesgisd, like, really hurting) and second time yesterday.

Got MCs on both visits, yeaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh.

So through these two visits, I found out that my intestine muscles are a bit screwed up, and so is my temporomandibular joint. That's a joint near my ears and if I had actually ignored the pain and all, I coud risk having a dislocated jaw and very severe migraines.

So I'm on medication to relax those muscles.

I'll admire your expensive taste

2012-01-23T10:57:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAAAAAAR GUYS!! :)

It's the year of the dragon!! :)

So if you have currently got >$100 in your red packet collection so far, you may now call 1800-donate-to-beverly.

Because every year, my red packet collection is painfully leeeeetleeeee :(

BUT IT'S OKAY!!! CNY's about family, not money!!!!!!!

Ah right, who am I kidding, which person in this world doesn't want more money when there's a chance to get more money?

Gonna go visit relatives today and I'm bringing my instaxxxxx hehehehehe.

Yays and nays

2012-01-19T21:22:00.003+08:00

Yay

- It's Friday tmrw

- CNY is coming really sooooon!!! (3 more days)

- Meowmeow, my pet cat and Jimmy, my pet turtle. I refer to them both as "baby girl" and "baby boy" respectively and somedays I feel like they're really my children.

- Meowmeow and what she is right now. She's been with us for almost a month now and she's gained some weight. She hasn't really grown though, but she sure is NAUGHTY, climbing everywhere (AND YES I MEAN EVERYWHERE) and when she does something cute, not only does she know I know she's being cute, she'll keep doing whatever action I found cute over and over again and I......... never get tired of it :)

- Went for choir today and I'm so glad I did hahahhaa even though I was looking for a million reasons to skip it beforehand. Choir today was pretty fun, all we did was sectionals for 15mins and talking to Miss Grace as a level (Sec 4s and 5s) for 30 mins. I LIKE.

- When my dad picks me up after choir :)

Nays
- When it's supposed to be a group project and others don't do their share, and you have to do everything.

- 'O's (I know it's 10 months away but still)

- When people make empty promises to you and crush your bubble and kill your joy.

- Meowmeow, when she jumps on everything and makes everything fall...... over and over again.

- MOTHER TONGUE

- Tuition tmrw after the Chinese New Year celebration in school...... whataspoiler.

BYE! :)

Did you hear how we shouted and screamed?

2012-01-15T10:00:00.015+08:00

Does anyone need a cheeseburger?

I have two here.

So, I just got through the 2nd week of school, applause for meeeeeee pleaaaaaaaaaseeeeeee!!!
Didn't sleep once in school this week, not in lessons, not in free periods too! (double applause)

CCA fair was extremely boring this year. No stickers allowed, no standing on tables to promote your CCA, nothing. Basically, all fun was taken out and all colour was drained. Pfft. The only fun I had was going around taking instax-es with my friends and juniors :)

Now, I need to build something like this in school so that when I get too mad or sad, I have somewhere to go to. My home's 45mins away, so having a really near retreat would be really goooood.

Well, tomorrow's another day of school.
BRING IT ON!!!!!!!!!....!!!!! Slowly.

Drama

2012-01-09T18:26:00.006+08:00

Well, I can finally say I've properly ended my 'O' level drama journey, in the sense that it's really been concluded now.

I collected my 'O' level drama results today, and to be honest, I didn't have a good feeling about it, ever since Saturday. I tried not to think about it, and forced myself to believe that my mind was just going bonkers and that my sixth sense was unreliable.

While I was queuing up to get my results, my heart was pounding and my hands were really cold. I took the result slip from Mdm Yeo, took a glance at the paper, looked away and took another glance (didn't need more than two glances since it was only one subject) and promptly broke into loud, continuous sobs that didn't stop for more than 20mins. I refused to believe what was written on the paper.

Didn't expect myself to cry so hard, but the tears just kept.on.coming. I was (am) disappointed and inconsolable. All the effort and time I put in, and this is the grade I get.

I didn't get less than a C grade, if you're wondering, but I didn't get what I expected as well, an A2.

I don't understand why God gave the others A2s and not me, when I feel like I've worked equally hard too.

Big thanks and love to everyone who tried to cheer me up, but to Stacy, Jillyn and Dorothy, thanks for physically being there :')

Rrrrrock and roll!

2012-01-09T05:46:00.002+08:00

So today marks the official start of the academic year, that means from today onwards, it's real studying, studying, yeah! (Or at least it's supposed to be anyway)

On a side note, the 'O' level results are released today, good luck to all 'O' levelers hehhhh, hope everyone gets a good score, yo! :)

I'm collecting my 'O' level drama results today as well, and I'm quite worried :/
I hope I can get an A! :/

Saw a tweet yesterday about the 'O' level results and it went like,
"There's no point praying about the results now, you should have prayed before the examination instead." (Or something along those lines)

And I thought, "Yeah, true. Whatever happens, happens."

I've said my prayers and crossed my fingers, it's all up to You now, Lord, and I hope You help me.

Bless your soul

2012-01-07T08:55:00.006+08:00

Well, it's 7th Jan today, and I wanted to blog on 1st Jan actually, you know New Year's and all?

I guess I'll do two posts in one. Bless your tired eyes if you're reading thisssssssss :)

Well, so 2012's here, goodbye 2011!!
Celebrated the coming of the new year by having a cell group countdown at William's, and as a cell group (or rather, two) we had a pretty fun time :)

Spent my first hour with my cell group laughing, taking pictures and praying together at the end, and I don't regret it :)

Took many instax-es with my cell group and other photos with other cameras as well, because yeah well, good times ought to be captured!!!!! (I'm imagining in my mind right now a prisoner named "good times" being captured.)

Oh and do you see that white Instax mini 7s in the background? IT'S MINEEEEEEEE :) :) :)

On another note, the academic year has finally started :)
6 weeks ago, I was really worried as to whether I could have another academic year in SMSS but during the results' day, God answered my prayer with a yes, and I guess if God puts me to the 'O' Levels, He'll put me through it :)

Been through a 4 day Adam Khoo learning camp, with each day lasting 13 hours, not kidding, not kidding!

Felt so tired and weary oh my soul, and definitely told myself that this camp was crap and wouldn't be a tear-jerker as what many said it was, but on the last day when Leroy talked about our parents, yeah well,

Others -1, Beverly - 0

Don't know if my motivation/enthusiasm to study will actually last (I think it's even faded off already) but I know for sure I'll be a better daughter, especially last night, when I told my parents to come down to school last minute to attend the talk, and they did, despite feeling so tired from work and what not :')

Felt so guilty when Leroy said, "When you were younger, when you were a baby, when you cried in the middle of the night every 3 hours, who do you think came to you, even when they were tired, even when they needed the sleep? And when you were younger, when you needed help taking something off a shelf, who helped you? And now when they ask you for your help, you ignore them. Who taught you how to walk? Your parents had to teach you how to walk, and now you know how to walk, and you walk away from them. And for those of you who talk about your parents online and how they didn't give you this/that, did this/that to you, you are an idiot, why do you do that? Your parents didn't broadcast your faults, why do you broadcast theirs? When you all went out as a family, they didn't have to take baby you along, they could have just left you at home, but they chose to take you along, they packed milk powder, diapers, clothes, towel, bottles, and everything you needed into this giant, heavy bag just for you, they took you shopping, went into every shop you wanted, and now, you don't even want to go out with them."

I don't wanna turn this into some guilt post, cos I like my posts happy, soooo... let's change topic :)

Gonna check out Ngee Ann Poly later with Dorothy, Kimo and LM hahahah! :)

BYEEEEE!!! :)

You make me happy when skies are grey, YEAHYEAHYEAH!!!!!

2011-12-30T10:03:00.006+08:00

It's 10.08am right now and my beloved pet cat, Meowmeow is playing with her new ball toy that makes a lot of noise.

Meowmeow kinda walked into my HDB flat on the morning of Christmas Eve this year, and my bro took an immense liking to her, and persuaded my parents (More like persuaded my mum only cos my dad didn't need much persuasion) to keep her.

We kept her.
We feed her daily and we play with her and I dare say she's living a good life that only gets better every day!!!!
Maybe we'll keep her permanently, maybe we'll let her go back outside, where she came from, once she gets a bit bigger :)

Went out with Dorothy, Stacy, Jillyn and Nicole yesterday to TPY liberry to study.... Or should I say "study" because my friends were all so distractedddd!!!!!!!

Headed to Bishan for lunch at Yoshinoya (which I really loveeeeee ^.^) and then headed to Holland to meet Amber at Wendy's. Andrea came along after that :)
Walked around Holland just fooling around, catching up and having fun, I really, really, really love my friends, thanks for such a happy Thursday!!! :) (More photos on Facebook)

Heh, I can't wait for Saturday and Monday to arrive!! :)

BYE! :)

Play it grOoOoOvy

2011-12-22T11:31:00.012+08:00

3 more days to Christmas
And I am

Doing Maths.

More like revising actually because I don't want to lag behind too much when school reopens.

I need some Christmas cookies and Korean spicy-but-not-too-spicy noodles to perk me up. Also I really wish SMSS would allow the students to go back to school with painted nails because I really feel like painting my nails!!!!!

Alright, back to Pythagoras and his friends and their although-I-passed-Maths-I-still-find them irrelevant theorems!!

BYE!!!!!! :)

Empire state of mine

2011-12-20T19:32:00.014+08:00

1. I can't eat spicy food. Okay no, I CAN, but I can't handle heaps and loads of chili like my dear friend J can. I can't. Today I had lor mee for lunch and the hawker accidentally put a spoonful of red-cut chilies inside. I managed to take all but one out (I blame you, my bad eyes) and oh my gosh for that 1 minute or so when that red-cut chili was in my mouth, torturing my tongue and igniting my mouth into flames, I was busy downing water and gulping it awaaaaay, tryna save my own soul from being dragged into the fiery furnace known to the world as: Hell.

Okay I'm exaggerating. But I really can't take spicy food well.

2. My 'N' level score.

I wasn't that lucky this year to have all the time in the world, to have no CCA to attend, no further commitments, I also didn't have regular tuition classes every month or so, even though I would have gladly appreciated having those classes.

What I had though, was intense choir practice twice weekly due to SYF this year, 'O' level drama every Tuesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays, and also maybe Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays too and the once, or twice, or heh, thrice weekly outings with friends, leaving me with fairly little amount of time to prepare for my exams before mid-August arrived because truth be told, we had our last practical piece performance on 12 Aug (if I remembered correctly) so right up till that day, it was rehearsal after rehearsal everyday in the PAS, and only after 12 Aug did I have all the time in the world on my hands to study.

I did my best though, I made good use of whatever spare time I had though. I studied on the hour long bus ride to school, though sometimes I fell asleep, I spent my time texting friends instead, or I just looked out the window and stared at the buildings and people that passed me by, heh. I spent whatever free time I had on weekdays studying till 6pm with my friends in school, I went for consultations (Mostly with Miss Lee for Chem) I woke up at 4am every other morning to study, I stayed at home on weekends to study. (Some nights weren't productive though. :/)

I'm pleased with my score, I'M PLEASED and I'm thankful, given all the time constraints I had faced before prelims, other commitments, distractions, lack of tuition, and lack of brains. ^.^ Also, I am the same girl that scored 34 points for her prelims hahahahaha.

I know there are people out there who were busier than me throughout the year and still scored better marks than me,

And though I didn't hit my aim of 12 and I kinda feel a little frustrated cos I think that I could have achieved that 12 if I had worked a little harder, or sacrificed more sleep, but overall, I scored less than 15 and I did get a B4 for Maths, so yayyy to that cos previously when it came to Maths, all I ever scored was F9s and E8s. Yay to my overall score and my grades for Maths, EL and Combined Humanities. :)

Also, I found the perfect GIF to describe how I felt yesterday at 2pm:

Yeah, I was happy. I AM happy, for myself and for my friends who all made it to Sec 5!!!!! :)

3. Christmas is coming up in 5 days!!! I'm finally in the Christmas mood. I feel like getting a CD player and buying Christmas albums and playing them at home all day.

4. On Friday, I hope Mark, Jicai and I can go out together, I haven't spent time with them two for a while... :(

5. I stayed in Singapore for the whole damn holidays. Pretty sad that I couldn't go anywhere, not to Europe (Lucky ol' Laura, Kimberley and Natasha Lim, ehehehe.) not to Bali to get a tan like what Ivie's doing right now, not to Shenzhen/Hongkong to shop till I drop like Nicole Isabella, and not to Taiwan to eat good food for a week like Sarah Lee!

But I'm not duper sad, I spent my holidays working part-time at this place in Macpherson, it's sort of like a factory job, all I had to do was activate mobile phones, and the pay wasn't too bad, plus the job was so duper slack! :) :) :) :)

6. I cleaned up my room yesterday/today, and pasted Polaroids near my mirror and all. The room definitely looks much brighter, I like :) I was also thinking of getting new curtains... :)

7. If I work hard enough and if it's God's plan, maybe I'll get this number of points for 'O' Levels next year.

8. Or maybe this number.

9. I was half-contemplating to go to Higher NITEC actually. I looked through all the courses and some of them look pretty fun, plus there are graduates there who excelled really well in the marketplace after graduating.

10. My grandma just called, I am going to talk to her now. I miss her so much :)

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My grandma's really sweet, she said she's willing to give me any amount of money for me to go to university if need be :')
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Turn my dreams into plans, my "can't"s into "can"s

2011-12-19T22:04:00.004+08:00

(Pictures from Candlelight Service yesterday and 1 picture from Vev's birthday party this year. I suck at uploading pictures and putting pictures on this blog and making my blog look nice)

Today was the day I (and many other 'N' level students) had been dreading for a looooooooong time. Today, we got back our results.

I had a nightmare yesterday, dreamt I got 26 points, woke up feeling nauseous and my heart was racing.

Was up early in the morning to meet J, Dorothy, Stacy and Beryl to surprise AAAAAAAAAAMBAAAAAH!!!!!!! :)

So glad she liked our surprise, Jillyn baked lots of cupcakes/cookies for her, we bought her lotsa stuff for baking and a giant Cinderella balloon (cos she's a princess) and Andrea, who came later, bought many coloured helium balloons to add to the giant Cinderella balloon as well. LOVE YOU AMBER!!!

Amber, Andrea, J, Beryl, Stacy, Dorothy and I reached school before 1pm, and we managed to catch sight of Mr V Koh, who told us a little bit about our results, which sure calmed our wild thoughts and crazy, beating hearts ^.^

At 2pm, we were all in the theatrette, yep, 40 big bundles of nerves all worrying what would we each individually get and who would fail. (Cue sighs of "Is it me?" "Eh shit la, what if it's me....")

Well, I got back my results and I'm very glad to say that I passed!!!!! Yup, I'm gonna come back to the school to take my O's. It wasn't a fantastic single-digit pass, nor was it a borderline pass. It was pretty average :)

Scored A1 for English and A2 for Humanities and a B4 for Maths, in which I must say I AM VERY PLEASED because I don't have tuition and I didn't even have time to check my paper 1 and all along I had been scoring 20-30/100, so yes this B4 means everything to me!!!!!! :)

I didn't get any Cs. This is the first time I didn't get any C for an exam.

As a song goes,
"If not for love, where would I be if not for love? If not for grace, where would I be if not for grace?"
I thank You God :)

BYEEEEEEEEE :)

PS: @sarahleesq if you're reading this, thank you for coming down to support me today, you're really very sweet :')

2011-12-10T19:05:00.003+08:00

Also, I spoke to my mother about 19 Dec, and I told her to prepare herself mentally for the fact that on that day I might come telling her I'm not gonna make it back to Sec 5.

But then again, I don't know if I want to go to Sec 5.

Maybe Higher NITEC will be a better place for me?

Maybe, I don't know.

I'm going to go stretch my face now, I always feel so much more relaxed after that, thank you Miss Grace for teaching the choir that fabulous warm-up.

What's up, buttercup

2011-12-10T18:56:00.004+08:00

When you want to sleep but you CAN'T, YOU CAN'T, you just can't, and you're really tired, you're really ridden with fatigue and no amount of Twitter, book-reading, texting or TV-watching is able to distract you........

This was my face for half the day.

Let's pray that tmrw will be better, I bought a pretty red belt yesterday while out with Samy.

Sometimes I really think I am quite stupid, I go out even when I have the flu, thus proving that I have no social hygiene and I only refuse to stop when I have been completely and totally and undeniably worn out, and when my body flashes a bright-red warning signal (aching bones, double vision (No that's not my normal astigmatism, dear) fever and a cough so bad I suspect I have lost my lungs to the air already.) that I then admit defeat and stay in bed staring at the walls because I don't know what to watch on Funshion.

But the good news is, my parents buy me really delicious porridge and treat me like a queeeeeeeen~~~~~~

Bye!!

Lately

2011-12-05T10:47:00.002+08:00

Lately I have been
1. Reading Asian novels (I completed Shanghai Girls by Lisa See in 3 days and Im now reading her sequel, Dreams of Joy)

Lately I have
2. Cut my hair till it's chin length. My previous hair used to stop just at my chest, and I hated it so much, firstly because my hair is thin so having long hair only makes my hair look lifeless. Who likes having their hair look lifeless?

3. Gotten myself a POSB ATM card, like finally. Now I can join my friends when they go withdraw money/pay by NETS for stuff.

4. Been worrying about my 'N' level results..... it's in 14 days.

But whatever it is, I know my future is in Your hands, and I know when I can't see Your hand, I'll trust Your heart.

I gotta start confessing positively about my results, oh yes yes yes yes yes I'LL MAKE IT TO SEC 5!!!!!!!

111116666

2011-11-26T07:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, VEVIEN ONG! :)

Had a really fun time at your party last week, thanks for inviting me once again! :)
So happy birthday sugarlump, may your birthday be as sweet as you and may Bernard be sweeter to you, too! :)

Light as a feather, stiff as a board

2011-11-25T21:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO THEREEEE :)

This week, besides work, which can be quite pissing-off sometimes due to all the difficult phones that I have to activate, and the phones can be so annoying, really!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:( x230583975

Took pictures of my workplace but they're in my phone and um, I don't know how to upload them into the computer.... yes, you're looking a technology n00b here, yo.

Went to catch a circus theatre spectacular, Voyage De La Vie on Thursday night with my daddo, and I totally enjoyed it, yeap, acrobatic shows have now become my new favourite!!!! There was a woman who was swinging on just ropes, and ROPES ALONE, and she was so quick and beautiful and she was not dizzy even though she was spinning around so freaking fast,

She's my favourite :)

There was also a whole giant illuminated moon as part of the set, seriously, it was just superb, okay, superb, beautiful, so visually enchanting :)

And also, I'd like to say that I love curtain calls :) I just love it when the whole cast comes out and bows and smiles. I love curtain calls :)

Last Sunday, I went to catch a movie, "You're The Apple Of The Eye" and I've been desperately urging everyone to watch it. GO WATCH IT!!!!! :)

I don't understand how my cell group leader likes to make spreading the gospel as easy as telling a friend how much you like your favourite movie/drink, because spreading the gospel = something part of religion, and isn't religion/Jesus such a sensitive, debatable issue to be talking about?

What if you try to get someone to go to church, and not only does it backfire, thus demoralising yourself, it also leads to the person having even more hatred for the Lord?

BYE! :)

2011-11-14T22:03:00.006+08:00

Mother, would you learn this for your little girl?
For your little girl who just started work today? :)

I'm so glad I managed to find a holiday part-time job! :) :) :)
Okay fine, so the hours I have to work for are longer than what I expected, but I'm working with my friends, the pay isn't bad and my dad sends me to work every morning. (Or at least he sent me to work today, and he's sending me to work tmrw.)

Yayyyyy, in a few weeks' time I can shop to my heart's content!!!!

THIS PICTURE IS TO MY NEW CLOTHES TO COME AND THE MONEY THAT I WILL BE EARNING.

Okay technically, clothes and money can't smile, but they can PUT ON A SMILE ON MY FACE~
(I am so materialistic, I know, but it's only for right now.)
(Like, for the past 5 seconds I took TYPING that line, not for the past 5 seconds you took to read that line. So if I typed this post from 10:13:05pm to 10:13:10pm, that was how long I was materialistic for. NOT NOW AS YOU READ THIS!!!!!!!!! So if you're reading this at like, for example, 15 November, 2pm, I AM NOT MATERIALISTICCCCC AT THAT WOULD-BE-TO-COME MOMENT.

Okay fine, I won't say AM NOT, I'll say MIGHT NOT BE. I say "might not be" because how am I to know what I'd be like at 15 November, 2pm?

But definitely, materialism isn't bad, in my point of view, because what's wrong in wanting to pamper yourself and wanting new gadgets that can serve you better? What's bad for you? UNCHECKED materialism.

Okay, I'm going to stop here.
I had no intent on going on to the topic of materialism whatsoever.

BYE...!!! :)

Grace

2011-11-13T19:57:00.004+08:00

I went for church in the morning today, and I enjoyed what Reverend John Bevere had to preach on the topic of grace.

Been relying on myself and not trusting in God for the longest time.
Ha.

I'm going to eat eggtarts for breakfast tmrw and eggtarts remind me of Yiting!
Speaking of Yiting, it reminds me of my classmates, and the next time I get to see my classmates will be 19 Dec.... which is the day I collect my 'N' level results.

I really, really hope I can get below 19, I don't want to disappoint my parents.

Okay, what a boring post.

(YAAAAAAAAAAWNS)

2011-10-29T15:04:00.001+08:00

Need:

Hot chocolate

Good health

By when:

Now.

Cell group is starting in 24 mins.... where is everyone?

2011-10-28T16:32:00.001+08:00

"I just wanted to love someone. I wanted someone to love me. I thought you would love me. But you don't, and I can't make you love me."

"Well, maybe I love you more than we both think."
-The Secret Life Of The American Teenager, S1 Episode 10

2011-10-28T16:05:00.009+08:00

Mdm Yeo and Miss Poh gave the class a post N-level talk today, like they gave us information on what options we have for us after N-levels.
Continue taking O's, go to Higher NITEC, or simply retake N's?

I don't know.
10 months ago, not knowing would be okay, but right now, right now,

I gotta know.
I should know.
WHY DO I NOT KNOW!!!!!

What I want is entirely different from what my parents want, and I can't just disregard their words now, because this is my future, and you know the saying, "PARENTS KNOW BEST BEST BEST BEST. WE WANT THE BEST FOR YOU" and what if 10 years down the road, I am an unhappy worker living dull, dreay days and I look back and regret whatever choices I did/did not make a month from now/regret not listening (or listening... I don't know) to my parents?

On a much, much simpler note,

I really do love Amber, Laura, Andrea, Jillyn, Stacy and Dorothy, they make school so much more fun.

ENJOY THE WEEKENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A shiver runs down my spine, and my heart's beating fast

2011-10-25T18:54:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDY! WE ARE ORDERING PIZZA FOR DINNER TO CELEBRATE YOUR BIRTHDAY WOOHOO!!!! :) I love you, even though we don't get along well sometimes. Thank you for working hard and staying up late just to earn money to meet my daily needs and to keep up with the household expenses :)

Have been sick for the past 3 weeks now, with a bad, bad, bad cough that leaves me gasping for air every night, literally, leaving me to worry if I can even wake up to witness the sunrise the next morning.

Sounds really dramatic, but no seriously, it's true.

I went to the doctor last Sunday though, and she gave me a whole damn load of medicines to take, one of which is a bottle of cough syrup.

I hate cough syrup, hate it, HAAAAAAATEEEEE IT.

(So I've been "forgetting" to take my cough syrup whenever Mother's not around)

Heh heh heh.

Bye! :)

Baby, baby, baby, OHHHHH

2011-10-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

Had a great Wednesday,
I woke up late and thus decided to take the Circle Line to school. Reached at 820am, and we were supposed to have MT, but hey, Laosh didn't show up.

The whole class was also treated by Syahdina's beautiful rendition of Baby.
Yes, beautiful.
Buh-yoo-tee-fooooooooo

After school, had lunch with Vans, Amber, Andrea and Jillyn, then headed to Haw Par Villa with Amber and Andrea. I LIKE THAT PLACE VERYYYY MUCHHHH. We went to check out the ten courts of Hell and all!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=piCfHDXaeQc
(Click the link!!)

After Haw Par Villa, we all went to Andrea's house and ate/caught X Factor.

Reached home around 8 plus and guess how brightly my eyes shone when my mother told me my brother had ordered pizza and drumlets?

I love pizza crust. Pizza crust has the power to make the deaf hear and the weak strong, I AM SERIOUSSSSS.

I've been listening to Fix You covered by Glee (originally by Coldplay) on repeat for a while now.... I like it.

And I am absolutely positive that no one reads this blog.

So long, bye bye!

2011-10-13T16:34:00.008+08:00

Meet the birthday girl!Trying to do some artistic shots with Andrea's balloons and failing. Terribly.

Celebrated Andrea's birthday on the 7th October, and I must say she's a really lovely friend throughout the year. She's had quite a fair bit of sad affairs throughout the year but she always comes out strong and she's always so forgiving to her friends :) Andrea is a good friend :)

We surprised at her house in the morning and later on, Amber, Andrea, Dorothy and I headed to E2 Max to watch Easy A :)

YEAP N LEVELS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEHEHEH but my 'O' level Drama exam is on Monday, and this exam.... it's the final exam, and the most important exam, so I better go get revisingggggg~

But revising is hard when you have pizza and B&J's Clusterfluff ice cream in your head.... ah.

And the spacing for this post is so weird and so is the alignment for the photos. I normally align my photos to the LEFT. Oh gosh, if it's not pissing you off, it's pissing me off ugh.

And I can't fix it!

Omelettes. Lots and lots of omelettes.

2011-10-02T13:22:00.004+08:00

Um hi everyone my 'N' levels start tmrw, and in one day I'm going to take 3 papers.
Chemistry, Biology and History (In order)

SO HERE'S HOPING THAT THE PAPERS WILL BE EASY!!!! :)

Went for cell group yesterday and it was at Nicole's house, man, the cheese fries sold at some food shop nearby her house is pure goodness.

I'm craving for it right now, and craving for omelettes, creamy pasta and Japanese food too.

I really liked what Jiayu preached yesterday, felt it was really a Word in season for me, hehehe :)

I end all my national examinations this month, and OH YEAH YOU BET I CAN'T WAIT TO BE PARTYING, PARTYING, YEAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Oh and I seriously need an iPod.
Lost my iPod two months ago and have been in a bout of depression since.

I don't trust words, I trust actions.

2011-09-17T07:40:00.007+08:00

Alice In Wonderland,

Except now I'm Alice, and the big blue Cheshire cat is THE N LEVEL EXAMINATION.

No, okay, MOE, you do not plan to put the Chem, Bio and History paper on the EXACT SAME DAY without consulting us students okay?

You are not being democratic, okay?
OKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!

SO I DEMAND YOU TO CHANGE THE DATES AND PUSH IT TO DECEMBER 100.
YES, DECEMBER 100!!!!!!!!

Because I just feel so unprepared for the examinations despite all the intensive revision I've been doing, noooooooo okay nooooooooo and Im taking my drama prelims next week and nooooooo everything is just too fast and too furious and I can't keep up nooooo noooooo noooo.

So in the meantime, I shall go and learn how to be a good mother.

HAHAHAHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHA.

Enjoy your Saturday! :)

Abandoned

2011-09-10T00:19:00.007+08:00

This time, I'm not the one abandoned, I'm the one abandoning.

Haven't blogged for a LOOOOOOOOOONG time and Im sure by NOW NO ONE reads my blog
:'(
(inserts tears here)

Anyway, throughout this week, I had my 'N' levels MT, SS and English paper.
MT and English went well, but SS was just screwed. I made a mistake I could have so easily prevented.

Let's just hope Hisotry will pull me up.

Yesterday (Thursday):
MJ Zone + YK Zone + LEI zone + (inserts other zones' names here) YOUnique and Revival Night event! :)

Didn't stay for Revival Night, but I sure enjoyed myself at YOUnique with Jillyn, Kimo, Maysi, Ivie, Gladys, Nicole, Dorothy and Stacy!! :)

Picture of the flea market! :)

I came back home with a brooch, a Twitter ring (YESSS HAHAHA) and 3 tops.
There weren't very many stalls.

Yesterday: (Friday)
Headed to Stacy's house and she taught me Maths, and I did a bit of History too, and Dorothy came over in the afternoon, and I left for dinner in the evening with Kimo, Verena, Sarah Lee and Nicole :)
I had so much fun hahahaha!!!!!!!!!
SARAH LEE I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

And today (Saturday), it's a study session with my cell group N467B!! :)
I think I shall go get a new pair of contact lens today and a Chemistry guide book too.
Hmmmm okay! :)

Recently, I also caught GLEE 3D, and omg if you haven't caught it yet, please FLY down to a cinema showing it. Don't run or take a cab. FLY!!!!!!!!

I watched it with Jillyn, Dorothy and Stacy and from the beginning to the end,
I was just like this:

And okay BYEEEEEEEE EVERYONE! :)
(I'm not even sure if there's anyone for me to say bye to)

:'(

Good news from Heaven the angels bring

2011-08-30T11:58:00.008+08:00

Here's a few overdue pictures of the dinner I had with the rest of the 'O' level drama students and Miss Noraini on 12 Aug after our final performance, eheheheh!!! :)

And here are some photos taken with William's photobooth after cell last Saturday! :)

Cell on Saturday was great, we celebrated Jiayu's 21st birthday!!!!!!!! :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LEADER THAT'S SEEN ME GROW UP SINCE P6 EHEHEHEH :)
(Her birthday's on 6th Sept though)

Speaking of the number 6, it's 6 days to my first 'N' level paper.
Am I scared?

UH YEAH YOU BET!!!!!!!!! :(

And today's the last day of the long weekends.
Which means I should not be here blogging but should go back to studying.
Because school resumes tomorrow,
And I will be another day closer to ye 'N' levels.
And I think we're getting back our report books on Wednesday.
And comparatively speaking, I did better in the Mid Years than my Prelims,

So I'm going to switch the result slips.

Kidding!!!
(Or maybe I'm not)

Okay bye!!!! :)

iFeel terrible

2011-08-26T05:18:00.002+08:00

Was down with food poisoning today, this is my 2nd time in 9 years!!! (YES 9 YEARS, I am one healthy girl!!!!!!!)

Woke up at 420am with a weird feeling in my stomach and dashed to the toilet and had a bout of diarrhoea. Thought I'd feel better after that but nooooooooooo I didn't, I felt worse. Visited the toilet 352717 times after that, and vomited once, and somewhere during the afternoon, I had a high fever, followed by a headache and a backache that lasted till the night.

Went to the doctor who prescribed me 500 different kinds of medicine (I'm exaggerating but he did give me a lot of medicine, ew gross) and came back home, took the medicines and was feeling so damn drowsy and sleepy, I had to give the 9pm show a miss. (DAMN)

Also, didn't manage to do much studying yesterday, apart from completing an EL composition, and half an EL Paper 2.

BUT ANYWAY GOOD MORNING FOLKS!!! :)
I'm going to school today :)
I'm trusting in the Lord to work a miracle on my sickly body today!

Carrying a heavy heart (That's loaded with bad grades, no hope, anger and desperation)

2011-08-24T16:33:00.005+08:00

This blog is so dead, soooooo dead.

Well, I've been getting back my prelim results all throughout this week, and let me just say, I did so well for prelims.
So well for prelims that I have to abandon this blog because I'm busy partying, and of course I'm busy partying, I don't need to study for N's because I did so freaking well for prelims already what!!!!!!!

The last few lines were dripping with sarcasm, I hope you realise.

SIGHHHHHHHH X295738573

'N' levels are in 10++ days, if I don't blog much, you know why.... :(

Gosh I just hate studying.

I saw a tweet that said,
"Studying is worse than getting raped. Not only do you not want to do it, you need to do it over and over again."

I COULDN'T AGREE MORE.

Is this post incoherent?

Pardon me.

Yknow, one of the impacts of globalisation is environmental degradation.
Well, my fellow friends, another impact that hits me (and I don't think it's just me alone) is BRAIN DEGRADATION.

My brain, it's dying from all the studying I've been doing.
And that's ironic. I should be absorbing knowledge and new info lika sponge, learning new things about this very splendid world and being excited to know more than I already know.

But I feel the complete opposite~

Bye!!!!
(TO MY A1s, I DON'T WANT TO SAY BYE TO YOU)
(Not that there were many to begin with)

2011-08-14T17:21:00.000+08:00

I have a whole load of things to blog about:

-Drama dinner (12th Aug 2011
-Drama 'O' Level Performance (which went extreeeeeemeleeeeeey well) (12th Aug 2011)

Um okay that's just about it, the rest is just... boring hahahaha.

On a side note, I lost my iPod.

This is the old one...... and yes I am sad, like very very sad,
There's 850++ songs in my old iPod, and ugh to re-download them all again...... Sigh.

But instead of being all sad and remaining down in the dumps, I'm gna get myself a new iPod.

I'm gonna save up to get this!!!!!! :)

And guess what guys, I already have $5 in my iPod fund!!!!!
NOT TOO BAD, don't you think??? :)
(Because I only just lost my iPod yesterday)

NOTE TO SELF:
MUST SAVE $$$$$$$$$

2011-08-10T07:29:00.004+08:00

Soooooo I gotta be at Hweehwee's place at 9am for drama and that's totally cool but I'm also freaking out because THE DRAMA 'O' LEVEL EXAM IS TMRW AND FRIDAY!!! :(

Feeling like shiz at the moment, but it's okay, I'll make the best out of today!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE, MY COUNTRY AND MY HOMELAND!! :)

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ONE OF THE GREATEST PEOPLE I KNOW, JILLYN FOONG!!! (HUGS):
;D

Sorry I couldn't go for your celebration the other day, but I want you to know I'll always love you very much, because you've been such a marvelous friend and person overall to me, thank you so much Jillyn, for all the things we've done tgt, for all the things you've done for me :)

16th

2011-08-04T21:43:00.002+08:00

Hi, guess what I AM SIXTEEN YEARS OLD, GUYS.

That's right, it's not everyday that a sixteen year old blogs okay!?!!?

So that's right, this is something rare k! R-A-R-E!!!!!!!!

I'm just kidding heheheheheh I'm sure there are lots of 16-year-olds out there who blog everyday or so, but is there any 16 year old that feels as blessed and happy and loved as me?

K, I'm sure there is, but I'm just gonna act like they have all vanished in 30 seconds.

SOUNDS GOOD? YES!

So today was a fabulous day, it turned out much better than I expected. I didn't expect my 16th birthday to be so fun and enjoyable, in fact I was expecting a dull, boring birthday heh!!! :/

But yknow what, at 530am in the morning,

I was greeted by Verena right after I stepped out of the lifts, and she was carrying a box of homemade brownies for me!!! :)

Thank you 2312, you r the best, and your brownies are really delicioussssss!!!! Everyone said so :)

Thank you for sacrificing your sleep and ponning school just so you could bake the brownies and pass it to me before I left for school :)

You're so sweet :)

Received a whole load of presents/cards today, that were enough to fill 2 normal-sized plastic bags and 1 relatively huge plastic bag full to the brim, and helium balloons from Amber, Andrea and Jillyn Foong, ehehehe Im blessed and loved, ain't I? :)

I wished I had photos to show y'all, but alas, I don't :(

But still, I am very happy knowing that I have 3 bags of presents (It's even better than Christmas) and helium balloons (3 from Amber, Andrea and Jillyn and 5 helium balloons + 1 Elmo balloon from my cg that came to my house last night to surprise me) and knowing that I have chocolate birthday cake in the fridge + browniesssss, oh yes life is good! :)

I guess I should blog about my cell group coming over last night :)
(And anyway I want to!!!!)

So a few people from the cg came to my house yesterday to surprise me with chocolate cake and balloons, it was quite sweet x385738057 and I was really touched + totally wasn't expecting it, so thank you Kimberley, Sarah Lee, Jiayu, William, Mark and Weisong for sacrificing your time to come down to super ulu-pandan Buangkok Crescent!!!!

I'm really blessed, and I really liked the surprise/cake/balloons!!! :)

In short, to all my friends, thank you for making my bday so enjoyable and lovely, I really love each and every one of you!!!!!!! :')

Thank you for remembering my birthday, thank you for the presents, thank you for the cards, thank you for the well wishes.

But sadly, birthdays only come once a year.

Im counting down to 4th Aug 2012 yooooo!!!!

And oh oh oh oh, I share the same birthday as President Barack Obama, Kina Grannis and the twins from SLOD! :>

BYEEEEEEEE! :)

Thanks for reading! :)

THIS IS PRETTY

2011-08-03T19:04:00.001+08:00

http://youtu.be/-zg9xS87wgU

I can't embed the video but omgggggg I think the duet's really nice, I like Megan Nicole's voice :)

No, we ain't gonna stumble and fall, never.

2011-08-03T18:53:00.004+08:00

Soooooo..... I turn 16 tmrw.
Gosh, when I was 6, (I was very fond of nature. My adventures were always in the GREAAAAAAAT JUNGLE)

No I'm kidding, sorry that's from drama.

SPEAKING OF WHICH YO,
11TH AND 12TH AUGUST, GET YOUR BUTTS TO THE PAS AT 330PM AND 4PM RESPECTIVELY TO WATCH THE SEC 4 'O' LEVEL DRAMA GIRLS PERFORM THEIR LAST PRACTICAL PIECES!!!! :)

Uh-huh :)
ANYWAY, I turn 16 tmrw, and geeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee, I never thought I'd ever be able to say "I turn 16 tmrw!" because...... I just never thought so.

But that's stupid, considering how I would be able to say that.... because I may fail exams and fail a lot of other things, but I can't fail a birthday, I'll always grow older every year. (Okay I'm starting to sound lame.)

But anyway, the past few days have been hectic, like the past few days of my life has been nothing but just school + o level drama.

And let me tell you, if you were ever wishing to be me, I guess you won't want to wish that now.
Because I know for sure, you wouldn't want to be like me now, you wouldn't want to be having prelims, 'O's and 'N's happening all at the same time.

When I say same time, I mean same time.

My prelims and my 'O' level drama practical are on the exact same day (12th) and my 'O' level drama prelims are 2 weeks away from my actual 'N' levels.

Mmhmm :/

But I just want to say I'm so very thankful for friends like Kimberley, Jillynie, Amber, Dorothy, Nicole, Stacy, Laura, Andrea, Vans, Beryl and Limin, they make school life easier and more funnier (Literally)

I really have for myself a bunch of great classmates, thank You for them :)

K BY THE TIME YOU'VE READ THIS POST I WILL BE COOPED UP IN MY ROOM, WITH MY BOOKS AND WORKSHEETS FIGHTING AGAINST TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!

August will you be awesome? YES YOU WILL.

2011-08-01T18:42:00.004+08:00

It's 1st August.

Soooooooooo...........7 months has passed me by in a blink of an eye, and no I can't believe it, I really can't.

Man, I think we should stop saying,

"I want to do blah blah blah at the speed of light," and start saying,
"I want to do blah blah blah at the speed of time,"

Because yknow, time's really... really.... fast.

10 DAYS TO PRELIMS AND DRAMA 'O' LEVEL PRACTICAL,

TIME YOU REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY NEED TO COLLAPSE AND SLOW DOWN AND FREEZE AND........ ok.

N467 multiplied 2 weeks back, and last Saturday, we had our own individual multiplied cg meeting!

So I'm in N467B, under Sarah Lee (Did I say this before?) and we had cg at Ivie's house:)

It was really fun, I laughed a lot ehehehehehe :)

Sarah taught me Chem after that, thank you Sleeader! :)

Sooooooo yes, I really really really really really do love N467B, and I'm looking forward to cell group this week!!! (Gosh, it's been a while since I actually felt like this!)

And I do miss the people from N467A :(

Okay what am I talking about, different cell groups we may be, but we'll always be together in heart :)

Cliche, I know, but it's the truth!!!!!!! :)

And I really don't know what else to say, except that I felt that I needed to update this blog:)

To do:

- Biology papers that Miss Poh gave out today

-English file

-Social Studies

BYEEEEEEEEEEEE :)

Keep me sane

2011-07-25T21:05:00.005+08:00

Pictures from racial harmony day last week (Actually it's just 1 picture, a few pictures from the cg multiplication on Sat, one picture of me and two plates of banana cake taken Idk when, and another photo taken with Jillyn after drama)

(That's me in Yanaa's Malay costume)

The most time-consuming thing I've ever done would be taking up 'O' Level Drama.

And it doesn't help that I'm the only person in class taking this subject, nor does it help that everyone keeps telling me it's simple and I'm making a fuss out of nothing.
(I am not making a fuss out of nothing, I'd like to mention.)

Uh, do YOU take the subject?
You don't??
So why do you know so much about it? -.-

Lynnette Tan made my day today however,

She texted me,
"You have to perform in front of a big audience and it's O's?! Omg I'd be too scared if I had to do that!!!"

How empathetic and very sweet, thank you Lynnette :)
We need more people like this :)

Saw a quote on Kimo's Tumblr the other day,
"No one cares if you're sad, so you might as well stay happy."

And I totally agreed with it!!!!! :)

So from now till forever, I'll be keeping me sane by talking very loudly to anyone and everyone about anything and everything because talking about nonsense helps take the stress off me, and man, sometimes it's not so bad staying back so late for drama, because although I don't have much time for my other subjects (Oh btw this has got to stop, I can't keep sacrificing my other subjects for drama, oh my gosh I need better time management.) I get to walk past Amber, who's always in her usual spot, iPod plugged into her ears, paintbrushes in her hands, and creativity and imagination swirling and mixing together in her brain.

Then I'll walk up to her, and she will almost, always, give me cat whiskers and a paint me a heart-shaped cat nose. And I don't even have to plead!! :D

She just asks me if she can paint on my face, and I say yes,

And I walk out of school, hop onto the bus, iPod plugged in, painted whiskers showed off to the world, my heart brimming with joy, my eyes twinkling.

Of course my eyes would be twinkling, because for 45 mins every day, I grow an extra 8 lives!!!!!!!! :)

All you need is faith, trust and pixie dust

2011-07-24T06:20:00.005+08:00

So Im right here blogging not because of a lame-o reason but because I decided to get up early to do some Maths revision.

Neeeda get my B for Maths, need to need to need to!!!!!!

And anyway, yesterday was N467's multiplication! :)

We're now multiplied into 2 groups, Sarah Lee's group and Jiayu's group, and I'm with Sarah Lee, and I don't mind, but I'll definitely miss Jiayu, for the past 5 years, she's been the one watching over me, standing with me through good times and bad, guiding me, discipling me, having fun together with me, man I'll miss Jiayu :)

But I know I was placed under Sarah Lee for a good reason, and that she will lead me and the group to greater heights as well!! :)

So to my dear N467-ians who are reading this, don't be sad anymoreeeeeee okay? :)
Know that although we are now 2 cell groups, we'll always be together as one in heart!!! :)

Sounds cliche, but I believe it's true, after all, what we went through together will never and can't be ever forgetten.

So yes, don't be sad anymore, aite!!! :)

Although I'm with Chewmin, Ivie and Kimberley, I'm not with Nicole and Gladys anymore, and that sucks, duh.

They're two of my most helpful and funny friends that I know, and not seeing them often anymore....

:'/ Aye.

But I'm gna end this blog post on a happy note!

Amber Blue uploaded the pictures of my very in-advanced birthday celebration already yay yay yay yay yay :)

Bye! :)

NI HAO VANAKKAM SAYA CINTA KAMU THANK YOU

2011-07-22T18:56:00.008+08:00

We celebrated Racial Harmony Day in school yesterday!! :)
I did wear a Malay costume (Thank you Yanna for lending it to me) But I couldn't stand the fact that my shoes weren't matching so I changed out of it and lent it to Limin.

Enjoy ye pictures! :)

AND TODAY, my friends were the most sweetest friends ever, esp Jillyn Foong, Kimo Lim :)

My friends surprised me with a birthday celebration in advance for me in school today and man, the surprise totally worked, I was so unsuspecting of anything, I teared :')

Special thanks to Jillyn and Kimberley for baking the cake :)

Received a box full of food and a card made out of diapers (Thank you Danielle Chong and Faith Chong) and my, I really loved today, thank you J, Kimo, Stacy, Danielle, Nicole Isabella, Limin, Yiting, Andrea, Dorothy and Laura for surprising me in the canteen and for letting me end the school week on sucha happy note :)

And everybody who saw/tasted the cake kept singing praises about the cake.

WELL GUESS WHUT GUYS, IT'S MY CAKE BAKED BY 2 VERY SPECIAL FRIENDS OF MINE, I am lucky and blessed and yes Im showing off now :>

Had drama afterwards and hung out with Jillynie for a while after that :)
Pardon the picture, I'm all wet because I was caught in the pouring rain and was soaked to the skin.

I even bought new socks cos my socks were so old and wet and squelchy.

Soooooo even though I don't really like birthday celebrations that are too in advance, this one was great and really touched me :>

Besides, what with all the prelims and national exams coming up, not much can be done, aye? :)

SO IM REALLY HAPPY AND THANKFUL :>

Bye!! :)

Un-partying, un-partying.

2011-07-18T20:16:00.004+08:00

Can I have this for my birthday?
PLEAAAAASE? :)

But tsk, that's if I can even celebr8 my birthday -.-

From now till 12 August, it's 'O' level drama everyday from 2pm-6pm, and I really hope I can cope.
God, You put me to this, You'll put me through it.

Missed the Chem test today 'cos I had drama, which was held at the ISH and it was so damn hot, omggggggggg and there was a sicko pervert staring at us with binoculars from the hostel opposite -.-

And everyone told me the Chem test is hard.
I'm hoping with all my heart that it's not THAT hard.

Sheeeeeeeeeeesh, k bye, I have to do Mr Ahmad's drama homework, do Mr Chew's History Graded Assignment, do Laosh's MT homework, and study for Biology.

2011-07-17T22:00:00.003+08:00

It's Sunday today but it's not just ANOTHER Sunday,

This weekend was EMERGE weekend!!! :D

I totally enjoyed myself, from watching the various competitions to cheering real hard when MIM (Music In Motion) came in first for the Centrestage competition, well done my friends, to crying uncontrollably in the presence of the Lord during ministry.

I love my God :)

It is Your love, it is Your mercy, new every morning, unfailing.

Once again, reminded that my Lord loves me unconditionally, in spite of what I've done.

I couldn't be more thankful.

And to a special group of friends, Ivie, Nicole, Kimberley and Gladys,

God's blessings to me :)

Really :)

There's a Chemistry test tmrw, and ughhhhhh I just hate Chemistry so much.

Also, I've realised that recently, my good command of the English language has deteriorated... Something needs to be done, I will not enter the examination hall come September this year during my national examinations, staring at the exam questions, dumbfounded and close to tears.

I will not let that happen!

Bye! :)

Your world is my world, my fight is your fight

2011-07-11T20:28:00.005+08:00

Took my 'N' level Oral examination today, and this wasn't some prelim oral examination/mock examination,
NO WAY José!!!!!

This was the real thing ok, REAL THINGGGGGGG.

Everything went alright, except for the fact that I stuttered during the conversation and even made a wrong sentence structure WHILE SPEAKING.

Yeah, something I never thought would happen to me happened to me today...
I guess it's true when they say, "There's a first time for everything."

So to my dear oral examiners, your world is my world, my fight is your fight.

Please give me good marks, thank you!!!!!!!
I MADE YOU SMILE!!!!!!!!!!

Intended to take 153 with Jillyn and Kimberley but J ended up taking 961 (I think), so me and Kim took 153, and met Stacy, Dorothy and Ivie Tay on the bus tooeyz~

Alighted at Toa Payoh with Ivie and I enjoyed talking to her although it was just only 15 mins :)

Anddddddd, on a brighter, happier note, Jayesslee came to my church yesterday and sang 3 songs! (4, if you count the bubblegum song)

They sang Just The Way You Are, Coming Home and some Korean Christian song :)

They also shared their testimony and it was so heartwarming to hear what God did for them in their lives, I was so inspired, and close to tearing :')

I wished I had gone on Saturday as well 'cos I wanted to hear the twins sing "Price Tag", but alaaaaaaaaaas I was down with a fever and I stayed at home the whole day.

You can't buy this shirt anywhere yo.
There are only 50 of these around, each costing $35.
This doesn't belong to me though, it belongs to Verena! :)
(Rich, lucky kid)

(But the arms holding the shirt are mine)

(Thank you Ivie for taking the picture!!)

"You are amazing, just the way you areeeeeeeeee~"

Check them out on Youtube, yeah! :)

And recently I've been putting Enchanted by Owl City on repeat (Like I used to do before)
The 30th-51st second of the 4th minute of the song still captivates me hehehehe~

BYE! :)

2011-07-07T19:49:00.003+08:00

It's Thursday, everyone.
Tmrw is Friday, and then it will be Saturday, and then it will be Sunday and then it will be Monday and then it will be Tuesday........

My point is, besides sounding like Rebecca Black,
I am trying to say that I am one day closer to my 'N' levels everyday (Kinda obvious actually) and........ Idk, what if I can't make it through to Sec 5?

I wish I was born a certified genius.

Or if only the education system here isn't so damn competitive.

UGH AFTER SAYING ALL THESE BEVERLY WHY ARE YOU STILL BLOGGING???!
GO AND STUDY.

You either make it or you break it.

2011-07-04T11:41:00.002+08:00

I need a pair of piano-playing hands and a duet partner on piano.

And seriously, I love Owl City.
:'"""""""""""""""")

Seriously!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Inform me once more, was it romance at our earliest encounter when I strolled past and thou captured my gaze?

2011-07-02T16:42:00.004+08:00

Pardon me, but I must say that Adam Young looks good here and the deer looks so adorable and my oh my my vocabulary is weak isn't it?
The girl's quite pretty too! :)

Sooooooo I made it through six days of school (Had 'O' level drama today and it was so fun and productive, I'm starting to get really excited to do this third practical piece!!!) :D

On a brighter note, beng beng chocolate is now the center of my life and heart and soul thanks to Stacy Leow and Indonesia :)

On a sadder note.......

K there is something rather upsetting happening in my life now but I don't feel comfortable sharing it so publicly here so....

Bye! :)

2011-06-29T20:25:00.005+08:00

How's your midweek so far?

I am watching a guy called Anthony Merry crack nuts on a Channel 8 food show, eating my dinner and blogging.

Had learning journey today and ugh the weather was out to keel, I AM VERY SERIOUS.

Went to Clarke Quay, Boat Quay and Suntec City,

& for someone who goes to Suntec every Sunday, I am very clueless about the place.

I think the best part of the day was when everyone (plus Beryl) thought Beryl lost her phone, and Beryl was totally freaking out and we were spam-calling her phone in hopes to find it and get it back, but it was to no avail, because the person would pick up and not talk. The person was a girl.

20 minutes and lots of worrying, texting and calling l8r....

Yiting realised the phone was in her pocket.

-.-

So "the girl answering but not talking" was Yiting accidentally pressing the answer button on the phone in her pocket.

It was really quite hilarious, because Yiting even texted Beryl's phone(thinking the thief that was holding the phone would see it) and said,
"Hey, this is not your phone, so would you please return it? Thank you."

HAHAHAHAHA, in the end, the phone was found (It was never even lost)

Watched SMSS Idol at the PAS with J, Kimberley, Danielle, Andrea and Miranda,

Congratulations Kimberlyn for coming in 1st for the solo category and to whoever who won the group category.

Stayed back to study with Kimo and Maysi,

It was rather productive! :)

Okay I'm going to end here, bye :)

2011-06-24T10:14:00.002+08:00

I know what I want for my next birthday cake :)

THIS.

But it has got to be high in calcium because I think I'm not taking in enough calcium.

It's Friday today.

The holidays are coming to an end......

Non existent luggage

2011-06-23T09:12:00.002+08:00

Rapunzel's gonna be officially crowned as a Disney Princess on Oct 2, 2011!!! :)

On another note, I had the weirdest dream ever last night.

I dreamt that in the same week, both LEI Zone and SMSS Choir was going to China, and I'm part of both LEI Zone and SMSS Choir, so like, obviously I could only go to China with one group.

So I went with the choirrrrr. The choir was going to China for a competition and LEI Zone was going to China for camp.

In the dream, I dreamt that I boarded the wrong plane, and I was with LEI Zone instead.

Not that it mattered, because the choir was in another plane and both planes were taking off at the same time, so we would reach China at the same time.

However, in the plane, I kept feeling like something was amiss.... and something indeed was amiss.

I didn't bring my luggage.

Not at all, no luggage.

My mother was on the plane with me (Idk why) and I asked her if she packed my stuff for me, and she said no.

I was doomed, I had nothing for choir and nothing for camp, so my only solution was to go back to Singapore.

I dreamt I told Leila and Liyun my problem, but Leila was just upset with me and Liyun couldn't offer any solutions :'(

Hahaha yeah, that was my weird dream!!!! :/

2011-06-22T23:08:00.003+08:00

Today was the most fun-filled day of my holidays ever, went to Seoul Garden @ Clementi Mall with Jillyn and Kimberley and went to Far East Plaza/ION with Kimo after that, before heading home! :)

Had a gr8 day just talking and laughing and eating, hahaha :)

Come to think of it, this was what I did for the whole holidays:

1st week- Intensive lessons @ school

2nd week- YK Youth Camp, studying

3rd week- Bryan's band concert, studying

4th week- Studying. (Mostly)

Yeah, I barely went out at all over the past 3 weeks, so today was really funtastic, thanks oh-so-much, Jillyn and Kimberley :)

Moving on, my mother has prepared spaghetti for me on the kitchen table and I'm hungry despite devouring a whole ton of food at Seoul Garden and eating Shihlin Taiwan Mee Sua at FEP, so bye folks, I'll be at my kitchen table if you need me :)

Staring at eggs

2011-06-20T19:03:00.004+08:00

Unlike this peaceful bird (Is this the Twitter bird, btw) here, I did not stare at/watch over eggs the whole day.

But then again I might as well have,

Did MT assessments for like 1++ hours today and it was seriously harder than I thought, and those were just 'N' level SIMULATED papers, HAHA when the real 'N' levels come, I am dead meat.
(So I should have stared at/watched over eggs instead, because now I'm just so worried for myself)

Also, I should have started on studying Biology at 630pm but as you can see, I have not.

But yesterday was good, I did History and MT :)

(THUMBS UP FOR BEING DISCIPLINED AND PRODUCTIVE)

And to end this post, I would like to say that walking around in supermarkets strangely comforts me.

I like to look at food items and to imagine the different ways to cook them, and to drink in the sight of coloured cereal boxes lined up neatly on shelves, and yelling my name.

If it's a big supermarket, it's even better, takes away my stress so easily~

But unfortunately for me, the nearest supermarket to my house is a Shop 'N' Save the size of my bedroom.

BYE! :)

I think I'm gonna stay the same

2011-06-19T08:02:00.002+08:00

My name is Beverly.

I enjoyed cell group a lot ystd and I'm glad the cell group liked the game that I led, woohoo Hodgy Podgy! :)

I also love soup a lot.

Instant soup, or soup that takes ages to boil.... whatever it is, I love soup :)

However, I hate the flu.

I have it now :(

It makes me sleepy and grumpy.

I dreamt of Miranda, Kimberley Lim and Jicai ystd.

It was a very weird dream.

This is how Primary One kids write about themselves/write their compositions, I believe.

GOODBYE! :)

Unafraid to be unproductive

2011-06-17T22:03:00.003+08:00

Today was another slackathon day, I stayed at home yet again.

This is the 3rd time in a week that I've stayed home and yet haven't studied productively?

Only studied 2 chapters of SS and half a chapter of History today, then dinner with Kimberley at Bishan, and then we went grocery shopping, say woohoo to instant soup, pancake mixes and baby bites, and then we headed home,

And here I am wondering what on earth did I actually do this week from Monday to like, today.

No, seriously, what did I do?!?!?!

I didn't study much, that's all I know, all I did study was SS, Maths, English and History for this week.

And I wanna make it to Sec 5 next year.

OH YEAH, KEEP IT UP BEVERLY AND SEE WHERE YOU END UP AT.

Then we'd sing along with the crowd

2011-06-15T11:14:00.004+08:00

Few pictures from the YK Youth Camp! :)

Kimo and me, woohoo love this girl/dinosaur a lot! :)

This is Louisa, the assistant team leader for team 13 and SHE IS SO CUTE, I had so much fun working with her, and every morning when I reached the campsite (Because I didn't stayover,) The first person I would always look for would be her hehehehe :)

I love Louisaaaaaaa! :)

AND WOOHOO TEAM 13 CAME IN 3RD!!!!! :)
(applause)

YAY FOR TEAM 13! :)

That's me, Jicai and Engloong :)

Pictures from Sunday:

I like my vest hehe :)

Reverend Pastor Mike Connell preached a wonderful Word on deliverance and then we had ministry afterwards, and ate at Old Town White Coffee with the cell group, and headed home :)

Yesterday (Tuesday),

Had another slackathon at home with my textbooks and a major craving for eggs benedict!!!!!!!

GAAAAAAAH!!!! :(

YOUTH CAMP, YOU SO AWESOME LIKE WOOHOO!

2011-06-12T10:52:00.002+08:00

There, the last day of Youth Camp was yesterday :'(

YK Youth Camp 2011 was duper awesome, I was blessed in so many ways possible, I made so many new friends, got tanner (K this isn't what I would count a blessing, but nah, I'm just saying, I got tanner) and got a breakthrough in my spiritual life,

I love you Jesus :)

YK Youth Camp 2011, How I Met The Father (and many friends) was nowhere near boring, stupid or lame, and if I had the chance to, I would go from Buangkok to Sembawang over and over again to re-live the camp! :)

3 cheers to the Camp Committee, team leaders (LOUISA AND BRENDA ESPECIALLY OF MY TEAM, TEAM 13 WOOHOOOOO) and of course, all the campers! :)

Still can't forget what Krystle prayed for me on Day 1 (Or rather, Night 1),

Yes Jesus, I know that You are for me :)

Pictures of the YK Youth Camp are on Facebook but I CAN'T UPLOAD THEM ON BLOGGER WHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY :(

Statistics

2011-06-10T23:10:00.005+08:00

I think the fact that Blogger allows you to know how many people view your blog......

(Which isn't exactly a new feature heeheh)

Ummmmmm,

Its good because:

I know how many people read my blog on a daily/weekly basis.

And it's bad because:

I know how many people read my blog on a daily/weekly basis.

Like for instance, today, 31 people read my blog, and 43 people read yesterday.

Fine, those may not be manyyyy people to you, and you're probably waving me off and going, "Bah, lame." but I didn't know 43 people would be interested in reading this blog!! :')

OKAY THIS IS GETTING LAME, I KNOW!

But well, if you're here reading this, and if you read this blog regularly, thank you for spending your precious time on my not-so-precious-but-still space :')

I'm back from Day 2 of YK Youth Camp, drank hot mocha latte from The Coffee Bean while on the way to the campsite with Ivie, ehehehe I like hot coffee!! :)

And iced coffee too :)

Pastor Kong preached today and I had the oppurtunity to perform for him in the Glee item (which was the same as ystd) :> :> :>

Pastor Kong preached about the Holy Spirit, and he shared about his life experiences as well, he really is inspirational to me, even in the midst of terrible hardship, he really still carried out the phrase, "keep on keeping on" to a full extent :)

Yeaaaaaaaah, day 3 of the YK Youth Camp's tmrw, and tmrw's the last day!! :(

Found all I need.

2011-06-10T00:32:00.005+08:00

YK Youth Camp day 1 was today, and oh my gosh I was just so mightily blessed :')

Pastor Yock Kiang preached a gr8 Word,

Really timely in this period of my life right now, just as I'm feeling so dry and feeling like giving up on God,

The Lord reminded me to keep my promises to Him, and to draw close to Him.

You love me, You love me.

Worship was a blessing, a big blessing,

Haven't been worshipping as much as I should have ever since I started preparing for the exams, and gosh, how I miss worshipping for hours, just hours, how I miss just singing to the Lord, just opening up everything, just singing to Him, just telling Him how I feel, through songs.

I didn't cry out a river after everything ended, but I was so convicted after today's session, I was so moved, so touched by God.

If God can use the littlest of people to do great works for Him, He can use me :)

So convicted, touched and refreshed, and merely just this morning,

I was rolling my eyes and thinking that today was gonna be just another church camp, and how I would gain nothing from it.

God proved me wrong, and today's just the first day.

Excited for the next 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

The GLEE performance today with Vevien, Chewmin, Shannon, Anlynn, Amanda, Bernard, Joel, Xinying and a few more others went well tooooooo, we didn't screw up, yay!!!!!!! :)

I need You more than my next heartbeat.

2011-06-08T17:03:00.005+08:00

That's for Avril Lavigne and whoever else who saw a sk8r boy rocking up on MTV.

But definitely not for me, because I've been watching Disneychannel, Playhouse Disney, and local television for the whole day while on Twitter and trying to complete my English homework, and I've also been dreaming of a red polka-dotted vest that I saw yesterday.... oh how my heart cries out for you, oh cute, red, polka-dotted vest :'(

I MUST GET MY HANDS ON YOU!!!!!!!

And I got myself a new wallet yesterday,

It's a simple, flat, paper wallet encased in plastic as you can see, and I don't really feel like it fits me, but oh well, I'm in desperate need of a wallet and I couldn't find anything cuter or better.

I'm also in desperate need of good grades so I shall make the best of my free day and go off and study :)

YK Youth Camp tmrw.... (rolls eyes and yaaawwwwwwnsss)
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Not in the mood

2011-06-06T19:18:00.011+08:00

To everyone who's excited and thrilled for YK Youth Camp, leave this space now~

At this point of time, I'm not very thrilled for camp, I'm pretty excited to see what's gonna be going on and all, but overall, I'm not thrilled for camp, and if I could, I would like to take back my kachingsz and not go for camp, I would rather stay at home and study instead.

I just realised the irony in this post, haaaaaaaah just compare the last post and this post, how ironic can I get?

I'm tired of being tired, productivity level NEEDS TO INCREASE, I can't be going to Aspire Hub faithfully every week and NOT IMPROVING IN MATHS, LOL, then what's the point of me going?????????!

>:(

I feel like such a failure.... :(

And BTW, thanks for reading this post, if you're gna call me up and ask me "what's wrong, why aren't you excited yadda yadda yadda", SAVE YOUR BULLSHIZ, I'm not gonna ACT excited for YK Youth Camp anymore, I'm gonna be truthful, and well, if you still haven't gotten it, the truth is, I'M NOT EXCITED FOR CAMP! :) (Yes that's a happy face there, not a sad face)

There are other more important things in my life than a church camp.

For example, my studies.

K, bye! :)

2011-06-04T20:52:00.004+08:00

Love this song, especially from 0:09 onwards, I love the drums ehehehehe :)

Love the creator of this song, and the creator of the creator of this song, and of course the song in itself :')

On a sadder note, I lost my wallet while outside with my parents today, me and my wallets never had a long lifespan (as with my phones....I'm always spoiling my phones.)

Screw this, I have brought a lot of inconvenience upon myself sigh.........

I hope I'm able to find another cute, unique wallet!!!!

Goodbye chocolate chip cookie-like wallet,

(I'm serious, this really is how my wallet looks like, like exactly how it looks like.)

(If you, o reader, and me went out together before, you would know.)

I'll never see your face again, some dishonest crook has taken you away along with my $30 (which I freaking need so BADLY OH MY GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!), my ez-link card and my polaroids and Shaun and Jicai's ID photos.

What that dishonest crook would want to do with you and those items, I won't ever know, but goodbye :'(

I hate myself for being so careless at times.

A day without sunshine is.....night.

2011-06-03T09:37:00.003+08:00

Adam Young, you said it right.

Speaking of Adam Young, I can't stop raving about his latest album: ALL THINGS BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL!!!!!! It's coming out THIS MONTH yes THIS MONTH!!!!! :)
This guy is a pure geniusssss woooooohooooo~ :)

iPod nails? :)

Yes, donuts and fries from Macs are my weaknesses hahaha :)

And so is a sore throat, a sore-like-shiz throat,

I can't speak, sing or swallow, and I can't go to school today.

So.... yes.

BYE! :)

Hire liar fire...I hired a liar to start a fire!

2011-06-02T15:33:00.012+08:00

HAHAHA okay I didn't,

But if I could, I would definitely hire someone to bring all the teachers back,

We're supposed to have "intensive" lessons in school, but instead all I've been doing is laughing like shizass crasy, and slacking.

So basically, I wake up at 6am everyday to eat, play and laugh. (Y)

So in between slacking and contemplating whether to go for rehearsals (Because there's 3456788765 people involved, and they keep saying they still need me around but um I don't think so, there are plenty of other talented vocalists around HAR HAR) and whatever, I haven't been doing much.

Yes, I have been wasting my life away, and I clearly remembered I promised myself before that I would never waste my life away slacking!!!!!! :(

And okay, so my fringe is somewhat like this now...somewhat, I said SOMEWHAT, not EXACTLY (But then again, actually it isn't that a big difference)
(Come to think of it, when I tie my hair, I do look like that, hair-wise)

And I don't like it, because the weather's getting so HOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTT, so should I cut my bangs back again?

Then it will look like this!! :) (The bangs only, I mean)
Which I don't mind, because this is the solution to all my problems:

1) I have an awfully big forehead that needs to be covered up because it's so ugly, gosh.
2) This doesn't get into my eyes and make me annoyed :)

Alternatively, I could leave my hair as long as this, no?

Then I could be the new rapunzel!!!!!!! :)

But chances of me looking GOOD with long hair is 10% because I don't think I can manage/pull off long hair well for nutsss.

I am so bored. (I HAVEN'T SAID THESE 4 WORDS IN A LONG TIME!)

Where was I when the rockets came to life?

2011-06-01T06:27:00.008+08:00

Had a formspring for a while now but I never really did put it up anywhere. . . . . but I am so bored and soooooooooooo. . . .

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Even if you don't have any burning qn about me . . . . .heheh just think of one lameshiz qn to ask me and make me happy? :)

My Formspring is duper pathetic HAHAHAHA, for real.

Gna get myself contact lens today woohoo I've been contact lens-less for the past 2 weeks :(

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KIA NICOLE! :D

2011-05-28T23:01:00.001+08:00

Woah, my Saturday sure was tiring,

I didn't have 'O' level drama in the morning, but I had to do CIP/Flag day, so from 1pm to 6pm, my partner, J, and I were at TPY tryna get Singaporeans to donate to Xin Yuan Community Care.

If you saw two St Margaret's girls holding tin cans and shaking them every so often to get attention and asking people politely for donations and YOU RAN AWAY because you wanted to avoid us, SHAME ON YOU!

And BTW, I seriously think I covered every inch of Toa Payoh with my bare feet todaaaaay~

The heat was unbearable and I was just so exhausted!!!!! :(

Went back to return the tin cans later on at 6pm, and we bumped into Amber, Laura, Fanna, Isabella, Jazlina and Yanaa and HEHE me and Jillynie's tins were the HEAVIEST! :)
We're champions, that's right, and yknow what's the best part?
We were at Toa Payoh all day while they were at town and we actually started taking a break from 350pm onwards but they were at town slogging out their lives all the way till 5 ++ and our tins were still heavier, yay yay yay :)

After CIP, I rushed down to Tanah Merah, to Reuben's house for YK District music audition/practice with the other YK-ers,
I don't think I did well, although I tried my best and I'll admit, if I don't get this, I'm gonna be seriously upset :/

It was a gr8 time catching up with Vevien though :)

Today's an unhealthy Saturday, Macs for lunch, cup noodles for dinner, and Kit-kat bars for supper :/

BYE! :)

Dear Grades, you really needa get well soon

2011-05-27T16:41:00.010+08:00

Got back my report book today, and I passed 4 subjects and failed 2, and if this keeps up,

I can just say goodbye to Secondary 5 education.

On a side note, I don't know why my mother and I have to resort to shouting in the house, at each other, when we're not even angry at each other, we're just having a conversation.

I think my mother's hearing is getting worse.

Or maybe its mine.

I need to go offline and think of how to work towards definite academic goals, because the comments in my report book stated that "Beverly needs to work towards definite academic goals." The comments also stated that I have a good voice/good at singing and public speaking.

Referring to the latter, I've never gotten such comments in my report book before. :')

& did I mention, I slept at 930pm yesterday and woke up at 640am today!!!!!!!!

That is outrageous, and needless to say, I was late for school.
But its been a while since I had 9 hours of sleep.

Reached school and we had free time all the way till 850am, before we needed to head to the canteen to board the bus to go to the RSAF open house (Which I didn't enjoy hehhhh)

Jillyn Foong bakes extremely delicious rainbow cupcakes~ :)

BYE! :)

Don't let your heart go, please don't.

2011-05-23T20:25:00.006+08:00

Today we got back our Biology, Chemistry, MT and SS paper.

I passed Combined Science overall (With an A2 for Bio, what a VERY PLEASANT SURPRISE, THANK YOU JESUSSSS!!!)

And improved in my MT! :)

SS... I was so disappointed for having failed it by 2 marks after studying my butt off for it. GAH.

Crashed Stacy's house with Dorothy, Nicole and Fion and my dad picked me up afterwards :)

Okay this is such a short, pointless blog post, but thanks for reading, bye! :)

PS: To the girl who crashed into the glass door at the chapel today, please be okay!!!! :( I don't know you, but I wish you a speedy recovery! :)

2011-05-20T05:15:00.001+08:00

www.owlcitymusic.com

Goodness me, Owl City you're a true blessing eheheheheeeee.

Im up early because Im going to school and I don't know why Im doing so, considering its gna be an utter waste of my time and money....because WE'RE NOT DOING ANYTHING WORTHWHILE!!!!!!!!

But on a happier note, there's cell group tonight :)

Canon in D/Beauty in me

2011-05-18T21:49:00.006+08:00

Yes everybody, feeding cows is beauty... :)

BUT WAIT, WHO SAID SO??????

Come explore the notions of beauty, definitions of beauty, how to be beautiful and decide for yourself what exactly is beauty!?!?!

ITS TOMORROW, 145PM AT THE PERFORMING ARTS STUDIO!!!!

Come check the Sec 3s out as well, and the other Sec 4 group, everything's just really awesome!!!!!!! :)

While its kind of a relief that tmrw's the final showcase for our 'O' level drama piece showcase, because it means that okay, we're over and done with the group devised piece, I'm kinda sad, I've been spending so much time with Miranda, Yasira, Ambre and Kia Nicole, I really would h8 to be in a separate group from them come the next assignment :(

From all the brainstorming to the planning to the crazy ideas we all had but were rejected, (Haha from what I can remember, the 3rd scene was the only scene we came up with at the start and actually preserved from the very very very beginning), to meeting up almost every day, I really love you girls a lot, a lot :)

So happy that Jiayu and William could come down to watch me today, it really made me glad, FINALLY, someone from the cell group came down to watch what I was doing, really boosted my morale and performance ability on stage :)

And to my dearest KIMBERLEY CLAIRE LIM,
HAPPEEEUEREU BEEEE-EARTH-DAY!!!!
:)
I love wishing people happy birthday :)
Everyth I wanna say to you is in the Facebook message I sent (Which I texted you about)
Love talking to you, love how you just listen to me and empathise with me, and reason things out with me and help me see things from a clearer perspective when I'm not so angry and hot-headed, and how you don't try to reason things out with me when Im duper angry because it's just a turn off.
You're an awesomeeee friend and seriously, my life would suck without you!!!! :)
I love you!!!!!!! :)

Bye! :)

2011-05-15T21:47:00.005+08:00

It wasn't my most interesting Sunday today, skipped church because I had a terrible headache, but I went to look for the cell group later on for lunch.

Nothing particularly exciting today happened to me.

The most fun part of my day was probably eating Gladys's fries, being scared by this freaking gigantic crow and having a mynah steal food right in front of my face (SCARY!!!!!!!!) and playing around with Jicai, Mark and Minying.

Kinda happy that I've nothing left to study forrrrrr, but I'm not exactly stress free, drama 'o' level's next Wed/Thurs!!! :)

And I just realised how my previous post sounded all angry and annoyed,

But hey I really was angry and annoyed.
Heh :/

Shizzles, I wanna watch this, its like a modern take on Beauty And The Beast.
But given how little time I always have, and how fate always has a way to make sure I don't get to spend time with my friends,
I doubt I'll ever get around to watching this movie.
Ugh, shiz.

Bye! :)

I love you blue striped socks, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!

2011-05-14T15:59:00.005+08:00

I love you my blue striped socks, I love you.

I like my blue striped socks because they are comfortable to wear, plus they aren't ugly :)
PLUS THEY KEEP MY FEET WARM :)

I've always had a liking towards socks :)

Anyway how was your week, everyone?
Were your exams over on WEDNESDAY? Or how about...THURSDAY?
Were they over then?
(insert your answer here)
OKAY COOL!

Were you one of those people who wouldn't stop BRAGGING (Yes, bragging) ABOUT HOW YOUR EXAMS WERE OVER AND YADDA YADDA YADDA YADDA.
Because if you were, I h8 you.

And I'm not lying.

I'm not being unreasonable.

Of course its natural to be happy once your exams are over and come up with a whole list of things to do,
I mean yeah, praise the Lord, exams are over, YAAAAAAAAAAY~

BUT could you please spare a thought for those whose exams weren't over yet? :(

It was so annoying for me to keep having to put up with insensitive fools who wouldn't stop yakking about their post-exam plans because ugh seriously,
They were being freaking insensitive towards those who hadn't ended, (rolls eyes) and it was so annoying. (Yeah I was one of those who only ended all my written exams yesterday, sigh x29535923232118)

And btw, I haven't actually properly ended, my 'o' level drama practical exam is on next Wed and Thurs.

Yeah you could tell me,
"Yah but its your fault what, who ask you to take 'o' level drama."

YEAH you could do that, its fine by me, because you're right, its really "my own fault".

And you could also go the extra mile, maybe?
You could also STOP TELLING ME THAT 'O' LEVEL DRAMA IS HARDCORE EASY WHEN YOU DON'T KNOW A SINGLE THING ABOUT IT, THANK YOU.

Whoever made the quote,
"Never judge a person (Or in this case, subject) until you've walked a mile in their shoes", I can't agree more~

Ugh I'm just annoyed because I just realised I'll never have a chance to properly slack, given that the practical's next week, so from now till next wed/thurs its hardcore rehearsal/practice, and then after that we're getting back our papers, so nope,
No chance to slack.

Its not that I can't take hardwork, its just that I wish I had the chance to enjoy a six-day-holiday like the rest of my classmates, hahaha.

K its actually not very funny, my Saturdays and Sundays are spent on 'o' level drama and church activities, which means I have no chance to sleep in, no chance to rest.

That's why I'm ponning cell group today so that I can be home now and watch Gggggleeeee!!! :D
HAHAHA :)

But I've been loving spending time with my 'o' level drama group lately, which consists of Yasira, Ambre, Miranda and Kia Nicole, they're a joy to work with, I love all of them! (biggghugssss)

Okay, bye, enjoy your Saturday :)

UNLESS YOU'RE ONE OF THOSE INSENSITIVE FOOLS, THEN YOU DESERVE TO DIE.

I'm not referring to anyone in particular hahaha, I'm just talking in a general term.

Eating blizzards in a blizzard? SO COLD

2011-05-10T20:04:00.007+08:00

OOOH BLIZZAAAAAAARD.

They need to make this (and other kinds of ice cream) free everywhere in Singapore, the heat is killing me, seriously killing me,

I can't walk 20 mins in the open without complaining and resisting the urge to break out in curses for the weather, HAHA.

I like Blizzards, although sometimes I feel like vomiting if I eat too much or if I eat them when I'm too full.

Biology paper was today, if all goes well, I'll get a B3! (But Chem's gna pull me down anyway so gahhhhhhhh) :(

SOOOO while we hang on tight and keep strong for this is the last week of exams (For most of you anyway, mine ends on 18 May, next week) CHECK YOUR HOUSES, DO THEY LOOK LIKE HITLER????

Sometimes I wish they wouldn't put 'o' level drama so far back, I get so frustrated because of having to end l8r than my other classmates sometimes...
:(

Sigh sigh sigh sigh sigh!!!!!!!!

143/Apology

2011-05-09T19:42:00.008+08:00

Everytime I read your blog, or your tumblr,
And everytime I see a post of yours that in some way, I think its about me (and eventually I find out that it is,)
I crumble inside.

I truly do, because those posts aren't about how I made you happy anymore, or silly things we did together on a certain day, silly little letters we wrote each other,

Its what we've not been doing, its what I've done/not done to make you happy, to make our friendship work, its what I've neglected.

I can see now, that this friendship is falling apart, and.... and.... I realised it a while ago, but I never did make a conscious effort to try to fix it, ummmm not a big enough effort anyway

I want things back the way it was, and its not your fault we're at this state, its mine.

I miss you and I hope you know who you are :'''''''''''''''''''''''(

Would you go out with me?

2011-05-06T20:33:00.002+08:00

(CLICK FOR A CLEARER VIEW!!)

K, the words next to the red cartridge say,
"We've grown really close, and I want you to have this,
I'm at the Elite Four right now, and I made you a special team to beat them."

The Pokemon Team reads: Would You Go Out With Me?

HOW SWEEEEEEEEEET/CUTE IS THAT?
:')

I love Pokemon, hahaha :)

2nd blog post in a day, hahaha its been a really good, easy Friday! :)
Okay, back to Biology now, I'm going to fail Chem for sure so Bio's my only hope.
4 chapters left to go!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Afternoon naps

2011-05-06T14:36:00.003+08:00

Today school ended at like,
915am for me HAHAHAHA :)

Because I only had to do one paper-Chemistry, in which it was pretty manageable, but I don't think I can pass, considering I only studied 30 mins before the paper (Because I rly hate Chem, and I can't do Chem for nuts).

I wish I had had the discipline to study yesterday because then maybe I'd have passed the Chem exam today.

Anyway I came here to blog about how I reached home at 1130am after YTF-ing with J, Stacy and Hanis in school, and how I napped since 12pm till like now.... HAHAHA :)

Seriously, I can't begin to explain the joy I feel when for the past few days all I've had time for is studystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudystudy so today's really a blessing for me, I feel like its my birthday, I was able to have a nap!!!

I feel like putting on some sparkly, poofy, Disney Princess dress and dancing alone in reverie with fairy dust falling all around me... :')

Seriously love afternoon naps, in the past when all my friends told me they caught an afternoon nap, I'd just glare at them in burning rage and jealousy (K la, not so exaggerated, but somewhat true) BECAUSE I never could find the time, I was so overloaded with CCA and 'O' level drama and cell group and whatever not, how was I to afford a *glorious* afternoon nap?
:'( + >:(

So everybody here, if you have the chance to grab an afternoon nap after being tied to your schoolwork for the past few weeks with no means of escape,

Grab that afternoon nap.

Every evening, I'm screaming for exams to be over NOW

2011-05-05T17:45:00.007+08:00

Okay, one picture from Sports Day HAHAHAHA its just me and Ivie, I'm too leeee-aaaazy to upload the rest~
Do you like my moustache? :)

ANYWAYYYYYYY its the middle of the mid-year exams now (D'you see what I did there, actually I didn't do anything ahahahaha) and its during this period that Nescafe has gained one more loyal customer, me!!!!!! :)

Can't survive any exam without drinking this beforehand, I'll just fall asleep in the exam lah seriously.
So yes for a few weeks every year, Nescafe's profits go up by a little bit!!!! :)
Because of me! :)

Maths paper 2 was kinda tricky for me, ughhhhhhh I CAN wait to see my results, CAN wait to see what my carelessness costed me this time.

History paper wasn't bad, I spent 3 freaaaaaaking days cramming everything for History and even crying on Tuesday night because I really don't wish to fail History.

Eh wait, speaking of failing, I really think I'm going to fail my EL compo,
When I think of what I wrote, ITS SERIOUSLY SHIZ.
I could have done so much better!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(

I had a bit of difficulty for SBQ for History, if I find out I got L1 for everything .... (which for me sometimes isn't very hard)
Omg omg omg omg :'(
SEQ wasn't bad~ I hope I get to pass my SEQ.

Once this stupid midyears are over and done with, this will be how my life will look like~
^.^

Chemistry exam tmrw, HAHAHAHA look who doesn't really care!!!
This is a bad attitude, don't learn from me.

2011-04-29T22:47:00.003+08:00

OH YEAH~

My favourite part of the day:
Taking a long, cool shower at the end of the day, shampooing my hair, stepping out of the shower, changing into the most comfortable clothes,looking into the mirror, drying my hair, climbing into bed with my hair damp, and typing away on my laptop, while overwhelmed with satisfaction that I managed to study productively that day for at least a minimum of 4 hours. :D (Or on bad, lousy days, its guilt that overwhelms me instead)

EL paper today, and it was relatively okay, I attempted to do qn 4, which was the descriptive composition, and that was sth I'd consider as a risk, because I never ever actually did try doing descriptive compositions before until today.

Studied at Starbucks with J, thanks for teaching me Maths! :)
And headed back to school and did Social Studies,
Mr Chew was having a consultation with Maysi, so I just popped in, and got him to review/mark a few of my SEQ worksheets for SS so that I'd know what to do in the exam.

Overall, its been a productive, happy Friday,
And truly, nothing beats lying in bed with a peaceful heart and a thankful soul.
:')

2011-04-28T20:37:00.001+08:00

Tonight, I feel sad and horrible :'(
My English paper is tmrw.

I hope I can cope.

Is that the way you love?

2011-04-27T04:11:00.001+08:00

Um yeap let's get things straight, exams start on Friday,

And I've been really keeping calm and getting my revision going or at least trying to,
(I woke up at 4am to study History)

But the only subject I'm truly confident for is just SS....

Friends, this isn't a good sign.

At this point of time, I need to learn to survive on 2 hours of sleep, and STUDY HARDER, BEVERLY YOU IDIOT

Okay I'm going back to the land of Hitler now.

There's MT intensive t'day~

This is it

2011-04-23T20:57:00.009+08:00

I am only 15 (going on 16)

At 15 (going on 16), it is not right to feel so broken down, so scared, so stressed and trapped.

But when your mid years are in 1 week and you are nothing but unprepared, what's there left to say?

Everyone's out having a productive time studying and I try to do the same, but it never honestly works out for me, I just forget what I've revised the next day

Honestly contemplating to just drop it all, to just give it all up, to just skip school F O R E V E R.

Because I'm really tired and I don't know who understands/bothers to understand or encourage.

I want to receive encouragement cards!!

(Can't rely on my cell group for these kind of cards, for some reason, my cell group seems to have a hatred towards making cards for me or something like that, I'VE NEVER gotten a birthday card from my cell group except when I was 13, and yknow, I just want a card from my cell group, for anything, but nope, my wishes never get granted. Oh well~ guess I don't matter to my cell group enough for them to spend a few dollars on coloured paper and markers. Yeah, k.)

But at the end of it all, I want to be strong.
I'm not a failure, I refuse to be.

But... :'(

This is a blog post of conflicting feelings and ideas and all I need, ALL I NEED, is a new brain, that's not worn out, 50 hours of endless sleep, good food, and a few choir practices, I'm missing SMSS Choir so much.

Hey Jesus, do You think I could go to Heaven t'night?

I don't want to die, I just want to take a break from life on Earth.

Holding your hand, making you laugh

2011-04-20T21:25:00.009+08:00

(Click for a clearer view)

Was my parents ever like that the first time I refused to kiss goodnight? (And made it a permanent decision from then?)

I feel like a bad daughter.

I've stopped giving my parents good grades to be proud of, I've stopped giving them goodnight kisses, I've stopped making them cards, I've stopped singing and talking to them.

What have I not stopped?

My ungratefulness, my selfishness, my constant wanting and desiring, my...terrible-ness (No such word, but okay.)

And my parents, my darling parents,

They've been loving me since the day I was born, been giving me whatever they can to the best of my ability, getting me fantastic birthday cakes, letting me watch cartoons, teaching me to read and write, letting me go into their bedroom at 12mn just to sing at the top of my lungs, letting me wake up at 3am just to eat cereal, fetching me to places here and there, giving me money, taking me to places, buying me things they think I need, even if I don't really need them, but they care for me, so yeah, coming into my room in the middle of the night to switch off my laptop for me and pull the blankets over me for me, ironing my clothes, washing my clothes, spending their birthday at home just to look after me when I was sick last year (That's my mother), even sacrificing their own phone and going phoneless, just for me, scrimping and saving, just for me, just for me. I've heard my parents say to me, "I cannot afford this, but I will find a way to, for you." so many thousand times, and they've always held true to their word. How someone could be so sacrificial like my father and my mother, for a child like me,

I'll never understand.

I guess its true when they say a parent's love is endless.

I am an ingrate and a loser,

But I still have parents who love me and dote on me.

I am very blessed and thankful :')

I want to be a better daughter, I'm so sick of myself.

I HAD THE BEST DAY WITH YOU TODAY.

2011-04-18T20:32:00.002+08:00

IF YOU'RE FROM SMSS CHOIR, COME ON NOW,

WE NEED TO THROW A CELEBRATION PARTY PRONTO!!!!!!!!!!

WE GOT GOLD FOR SYF 2011!!!!!!!!! :)

For the whole day after we performed, I just couldn't wait to hear the results, would it be something that'd make me smile years after this was over, or would it be another regret in my life?

At 545pm, as I held my phone, and read Jewell's text,

I broke down, instantaneously.

I broke down, and I cried, I sobbed, I wept, I wailed.

But those weren't tears of sorrow, those were tears of joy, tears of unending, everlasting joy!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D

Looking back, all those hours of practice we put in, all the frustration, the happiness, the sadness, all that we went through together as a choir,

I don't mind doing it all over again.

CONGRATULATIONS TO US, SMSS CHOIR, WE GOT A GOLD! :)

We have a lot of people to thank:

God, Miss Chan, Miss M Tan, Miss Wong, Miss Pang and to the greatest, most selfless conductor who constantly said she hated us but in the end still stuck with us throughout, and taught us to the best of her ability, Miss Grace :)

AHHHHHHHHHH :')

Partying, partying, yeah! (SYF-ing, SYF-ing, yeah!)

2011-04-18T04:09:00.002+08:00

I am awake at this unearthly hour not because I can't sleep, and definitely not because I want to study (I do lah, but at this moment, my nerves are a bundle and I'm all tensed up....definitely not in the mood to study)

18 April 2011, the day where SMSS Choir will go up and show everyone what we've been doing for the past few months, tucked away in a blue theatrette with rocky, squeaky chairs, above the gallery, far from where any student would normally wander to. We will sing our hearts out and smile like we're taking our wedding pictures, we won't disappoint anybody.

18 April 2011,

Please be a good, gold day.

Because you feel like paradise,

2011-04-15T22:50:00.003+08:00

It saddens me that cute kids like him (Have you seen him sing "I'm Yours" on Youtube, ahhhhh omgggggg ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ !!!!!!!!!!!!!) have to go to school and study and go through sickening x8197413 exams and life problems and ahhhhhhhhhh ok what am I talking about, from talking about how cute this kid is, I've digressed to how stressful life can be and I'm only 16...I haven't even lived half of my life yet!!!!!!)

So yes, I still cannot upload pictures from the Sports Carnival and I have been spending this whole week doing SS, MT and E Maths because MY MID YEARS ARE COMING (plays funeral music)

Performed with the choir for Prefects' Commendation at St Andrew's Cathedral today (As with every other year) and the prefects looked so cute with the ribbons in their hair, hahaha :)

We sang Cantate Domino and we were dismissed right after we performed.

Headed to Raffles City with Therese and Lynnette Tan and though we spent a short time together, I enjoyed myself :)

Okaaaaaay so yupyuuuup that was my Friday,

Congratulations Malay Dancers for the Silver! :D

Monday is the choir's turn.... oh myyyyyyyyy. (shudders)

Monday's gna mean a lot to me, because it will be my last SYF with SMSS Choir, or with any other choir, because I'm not planning to go to any JC, and I'm not planning to join any other choir, although my passion for choral singing will always be with me~

So yupyupppp Monday's gna mean a lot to me,

This SYF will be my 4th SYF (Because I've been in choir since primary school) and this will be my last SYF, and so I really do want to make it right, and I want a gold. GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD GOLD.

Do you wanna be nice and leave a comment to encourage me? :)

2011-04-11T18:36:00.002+08:00

THIS IS SO FRUSTRATING, I wanna upload pictures of the sports carnival that happened on Friday but I'm unable to :'(

All pictures are on Facebook though! :)

Its been an unproductive Monday,

1 more week to SYF and like, idk how long more to MYEs.

29-11=19...

19 more days to MYEs!!!!!!!!!!! :'(

I needa figure out why I can't upload pictures to my blog.

Is it Blogger or is it my computer...?

Okay, you know what,

Compared to failing my MYEs/N levels,

This is a very minor problem that shall be solved when my Mid Year Exams end.

BYE! :)

2011-04-07T09:03:00.004+08:00

Its a Thursday morning and I should be in school but I just woke up and I don't feel like rushing, so I'm just going to bathe, study History, and then go to school for choir.

I was randomly reading Joanne Leong's blog archives just now,

And I saw this in one of her archives.

"bestest beverly better believe beyond boundaries ♥"

Sucha sweeeeet line, and it comes in so handy at this point of time in my life right now, (Never mind that that line was written in the past,)

Joanne Leong IDOL!!!!!!!

I miss you/love you x82356375631123!!! :)

Oh wind, a blowing all day long~

2011-04-06T20:34:00.002+08:00

Oh wind, a blowing all day long, pls blow the choir to a place of greater productivity I WANT A GOLD!

(Yuuuuuuuup, I think only those from choir in SYF would know what song I'm "singing" in this post.)

"Oh wind~~~ a blowing all day long, oh, wiiiiiiiiiind, that sings so loud a song~ Oh, wind~~~~"

Okay okay. Nothing was very productive for me today, with the exception of doing up the health corner in class (YAY for me, I'm the PE rep and I'm in charge!)

It looks quite good, and to Amber, Dorothy, Limin, Stacy, Isma, Syahdina and whoever else who helped to cut/paste/give ideas, thanks thanks thanks thanks :)

Choir was........it was fairly okay,

Towards the end, things just started to go downhill and Miss Grace stormed out of the room, Not without raising her voice and being almost close to tears of course.

I let out a deep sigh after she left, and it wasn't a sigh of relief, it was a sigh of fear and disappointment with myself/the choir.

12 more days to SYF, Come on choirrrrrrrrrr, we can do this, we need to do this, and we will do this! :)

We'll go into SOTA feeling lika G6, and we'll give a performance that will amaze everyone there, and we'll come out of SOTA feeling even better than a G6, because the judges are gonna say that we're the best choir in the world, and we're gonna win like, gold with honours and honours and lots of honours.

Yeah, that's SMSS choir for you, WE'RE GONNA GET A GOLD!!!!!!!!! (Not a gold with honours yet lah, but GOLD, definitely, we can do this!)

Very blessed

2011-04-03T17:10:00.008+08:00

"Thank you for giving to the Lord, I am a life that was changed,

Thank you for giving to the Lord, I am so glad you gave."

Had family service today at church, I was very very very very blessed when the CCH graduates sang this song, really made me reflect on what people have done for me, and what I have done for people....which is not a lot when I compare what people have done for me in return.

So many people have entered my life, and blessed me with so much, ayeeeeee. :')

From teaching me what simply being a good Christian is, to challenging me to do greater things for the Lord, to raising me up as a leader,

From tolerating me and my never-ending nonsense to hearing me out and buying me gifts, and hanging out with me, forgiving me, trusting in me and believing in me,

To all the people who've made an impact in my life,

(Which you cannot expect me to name ALL because then you would see no end to this post)

I am soooooo thankful for you,

So thankful.

This weekend was extraordinary. It was a wake-up call for me, a check on my self-centredness and how big my ego's gotten without me even realising it.... sigh.

(To the friend that I was crying to on the phone last night, you're the best)

"I'm sorry, I'm really sorry..."

"Its okay, I forgive you."

I hope that my realisation now is not too late.

I really need to humble myself before the Lord and before people.

As stated in Proverbs 22:4;
Humility and fear of the Lord bring wealth and honour and life.

And as stated in Colossians 3:12;

Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.

Thank You Jesus :)

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2011-03-31T21:49:00.008+08:00

Pictures from Sunday, celebrated Brenda's party at Bar Bar Black Sheep, its such a cute name for a place!

See this picture of Yanyi and Jinyi and see how Jinyi is staring at Yanyi HAHAHAH

And see how Nicole and Ivie Tay imitate them HAHAHAHA

K and this was taken in Pizza Hut, yeah our cell had Pizza Hut for lunch! :)

Its a terrific Thursday, class phototakingggg was quite fun~ :)

Had the mini SYF concert for the parents and I'm quite happy to see most of the choir members being serious about SYF now and listening to Miss Grace, although this could have been achieved much earlier, and we still have lots of things to improve on but...I'm still happy :)

I have to keep telling myself not to give up because its just so easy to give up and be contented with where we are right now, but NO.

I want a gold, and its 18 days left to SYF, not a lot of days left but at least there's time left, so I'll make the best out of it.

(LIKE X935738563756379353511)

The song "You Are My Father" really spoke to me this week. As the song goes,

"You are my Father, Provider, You're my Deliverer,"

And its really my revelation for this week.

Dear Jesus, I know You will provide me with whatever I need and You will deliver me from this stressful period I'm in, and You will grant me with strength. Thank You! :)

I told you so.

2011-03-30T21:04:00.002+08:00

I told you so, you'd be fine without me,

You said you can't live without me, but whoop-dee-do, look who's doing just fine!! (applause)

I'm not being sarcastic here, I just want you to know that I was right all along, that you've gone away, far away from me, and you are..... okay.

As much as you said you wouldn't be okay,

You are.

Thank you for being a part of the best few months of my life.

Now we're standing alone in a crowded room and we're not speaking,

Cupcakes and hot soup

2011-03-28T21:42:00.007+08:00

Cupcakes and hot soup would be so perfect right now~~~~

School's been soooooooo draining and Idk why, its not like the workload's increased x500, its just that I haven't been feeling very well recently, because I recently caught the flu and I haven't exactly 100% recovered.

School's draining, but Bev, that's no reason for you to be a slacker!!!!!!!!!

Wrote letters for Kimo and J today because I feel so nice :)

God, please grant me strength, its really all that I need now,

Strength, and sleeeeeeeep~~~~

ITS BRENDA WATERMELON LOO'S BIRTHDAY TMRWWWWW!!! :)

2011-03-23T19:50:00.004+08:00

AWESOME x100!!! :)

Like, for real.

School sucked today, the whole class was so quiet and I was feeling sick, and I used up so much tissue omg ughhhhhhh~

AND I haven't eaten YTF for duper long because the uncle/aunty hasn't been selling tomatoes.

TOMATOES IS LIKE, A MUST!!!???!!!!!!! ITS A MUST!!!

So I have been patronising Homie Ho's noodle stall everyday, and I'm getting sick of it, YTF uncle and aunty plssss start selling tomatoes soon PLS!!!

On a happy note, today I had a lot of fun being nonsensical with Jillynpuffy and.....(tries to think of other people to name....) actually just Jillynpuffy.

Love you girl, love you so much! :)

History was by far the most fun lesson,

J and I lied to Fanna, Zanurah and Bella that Mr Chew wasn't teaching us anymore and it was Mr Anthony who was teaching us and HAHAHAHA the reactions they gave me and J were PRICELESSSSSS. I burst out laughing like crazy, HAHA!!!!! :)

I'm leading Singspiration next week and if I don't get my voice back.... Oh shizzzzz.

Okay I need to do my homework now, bye! :)

Fairy's ferris wheel

2011-03-23T05:25:00.002+08:00

"And they lived happily ever after," Is the standard ending for every fairytale.

Which kid would like to hear that his/her (More likely, HER) favourite prince/princess didn't get a happy ending?

Happy endings in fairytales are so easy to create and achieve,

But in real life, it can prove to be the opposite.... But its not totally impossible! :)

And we will live happily ever after.

(HELLO, I am your new teacher on how to write a good story!)

2011-03-19T22:39:00.006+08:00

HAHAHA I just read my dear Lynn-Yi's blog:

STORY OF MY CHILD'S LIFE

morning: dance class/music class from 7:30am to 10am. Study til lunch
afternoon: swim for 2 hours, study til dinner
night: dinner (boiled veges, EVERYTHING BOILED HA), study til 9.30, poetry til 10. IN BED BY 10!

timetable must be handed to me, tuitions will be daily, will live far away from town (jurong island HA), no tv, no Internet unless for research, only have army phones with two contacts: mine and their father's, no sleepovers til 20, NO STARING AT BOYS/GIRLS TIL 20, 50 cents for primary pocket money, must save 50% in their piggy banks, study camps and Adam Khoo motivational camps at tender age. Sundays will be most enjoyable day: FAMILY OUTING! at..... top schools in singapore and NUS

OKAY OH WOWWWW LYNN-YI,

Talk about freedom for your child, yeah!!!!

I'm gonna make myself your child's godmother, so that your child still has a way out.

And anyway, you're my bffl, I'm sure you wouldn't mind? (winkwink) (big hugsssss)

I ALSO WANT TO WORK OUT A MOTHERING PLAN!!!!! (Though I'm far from the legal/ready age/not even interested in being a mother at all anyway hahaha)

So basically, how I'd be a mother?

I'd let my child do whatever he/she wants, as long as its not morally wrong, or is not harmful in the long run,

I would be strict with him/her but not to the point where he/she feels like he/she's living in Hell, because uh-uhhhh, that's not the way to feel!!!! :)

And I'd try to be his/her friend,

Because I think parents/children who are really close with each other are really sweet and awesome.

If all else fails and my child doesn't want to be my friend,

I'd give him/her this for breakfast everyday:

BECAUSE ISN'T THIS JUST SO CUTE HAHAHAHAHA!!! :)

Okay I should stop talking about motherhood and whatever not, I kinda have A LOT OF OTHER THINGS TO COMPLETE (education, for example) before I can even think of marriage and settling down and whatever not~ :)

SEE, I can prioritise!!!! :)

On another note,

I've got the flu blues (YET AGAIN) and oh my gosh, how I managed to survive today is truly a miracle.

Hit Ambre's house with Yasira, Kia Nicole, Miranda and Jewell (Ambre and her are neighbours, HOW COOL!!!) to watch The Devil Wears Prada as research for our drama pieceeeee, and then headed for cell, hahaha okay its been a sickly Saturday (Literally) But I know tomorrow will be better because CITY HARVEST CHURCH IS GONNA MOVE TO SUNTEC TMRW!!! :) (dances and sings with joy)

THIS IS IT!!! SUNTEC, YO, SUNTECCCCC~ :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM!

2011-03-18T15:52:00.008+08:00

My mother loves me everyday, this I know ^_^ (Duh, I'm her child)

But whenever I'm sick, I feel she loves me just a little bit more.

Last year, when I was sick on her birthday,

She stayed at home and looked after me, fetching me wet towels and water and attending to my every need.

Today,

I'm sick, and she worked half-day just to come home and give me lunch, in which she bought me my absolute favourite, fish bee hoon ftw hehehehe :)

She just went out to buy food to cook for dinner tonight, for me.

Today's not Mother's Day,

But thank you Mummy for taking care of me every single day.

So I just heard a really great song... :)

For all who don't know who Breanne Düren is, she's the girl who dueted with Adam So Freaking Awesome Randall Young in The Saltwater Room, and her voice, albeit very angelic, isn't quite to my liking, but her song "Daydreams" is worth listening to~~~ :)

And I've been really tempted nowadays to just quit school and be a superstar.

If Rebecca Black can make it, why can't I?

Oh yeah, thank you Rebecca Black for teaching us about the weekend and the various days of the week, it sure came as a revelation. (NOT)

The best part

2011-03-16T00:42:00.006+08:00

This is my 798th post hahahaha!

I just came home from the leaders' meeting at JW hall, honestly love Pastor Kong and CHC, Pastor Kong is such an anointed man, and I AM SO EXCITED TO GO TO SUNTEC CITY THIS SUNDAY!!!!

This won't be a temporary place for CHC's church meetings, this will be a PERMANENT place,

A PERMANENT PLACE for CHC church meetings!!

^_^

(Just realised that this font that I am using doesn't allow me to colour my fonts...!!!)

Besides that, I think whatever Pastor Kong talked about was soooooo apt and it really gave me sth to think about :)

Shall go offline now, hahaha honestly, I'm so excited about Suntec!!!! :) :) :)

Like the praise song we sang today states,
"How awesome is this place, angels descend here,

How awesome is this place, history's made here,"

Truly, Suntec City's awesome, City Harvest is awesome and of course, Jesus is awesome!!

J-E-S-U-S! :)

Okay, putting all that aside now,

I know this is random,

But recently, the best part of my day so far is when I get home, bathe and drink my mother's soup.

I've tried to resist my mother's soup time and time again but I always fail.

I just want to love You more and more

2011-03-13T08:05:00.002+08:00

I would be so scared if I was there, honestly, pray for Japan, ahhhhhh :(

Cell yesterday was gr8, Leila preached about hospitality,

Dinner with Gladys, Sherman, Mark, Celine W, Venni, Sarah Lee, Jicai, Gabriel, William at Square 2,

Hehehe Gladys and I wrote a song for @sarahleesq with a little inspiration from Australia (winkwinkkkk)

Watched I Am Number Four with Jicai, Gladys, Sherman, William and Mark,

HI EVERYONE, you should sit with me during movies because I am a good person to watch movies with (especially if I've watched the movie before)

Jicai agrees!!!! (FEELING LIKA BOSS NOW)

Anyway, its so random for me to talk about this now,

But we got back our progress report for Term 1 on Friday,

And yes, I only failed MT and Maths,

But my grades for the other subjects were quite disappointing.

I used to see a few As on my report card, then the As dwindled to just Bs and Cs, but mostly Bs, and now its just Cs.

This will not do,

I'm taking my N's soon..

I can't just come out of the exam hall with just Cs if I want to move on to Sec 5.

I need to study harder, and study smarter.

Service l8r at 2pm, and the Monopoly Deal event l8r as well,

IM EXCITED! :)

"I love it when I can spend time with someone for hours and hours, and end up missing them the moment they leave."

Fell in love when I saw you standing there

2011-03-12T06:23:00.005+08:00

I just watched it, and ugh the guy sucksxzzzx lah, he only went to all the places she wanted to go after they broke up.

:'(

Oh well, life goes on!!!!!

BTW, MAAAAAARK! :)

I saw you in the video!
At 3:36!!! :)

Watch this too, in a way its quite a sad commercial. :'(

Sometimes,

Its not what our children are turning into, its what we are turning our children into.

HAHAHHAHAHA I'M NOT EVEN A PARENT YET.

And yes, I'm back to my habit of blogging in the morning before even properly starting my day.

2011-03-11T23:37:00.007+08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_earthquakes_in_Japan

Adding to this list now is the 8.9 magnitude earthquake that just occurred today, March 11.

:'(

So far, my heart's with Japan/other countries affected by whatever natural disasters.... sighhhhh, an 8.9 earthquake???

That's really saddening :(

Its okay, Japan, you will see pretty skies (Like this one below) soon, stay strong!!!!!!! (inserts big hug)

Tsunami alerts have been issued to New Zealand and the Philippines,

So hey, if you are reading this, no matter what country you're in, stay strong and stay safe please! :)

On a note closer to home,

I didn't attend school in the morning but I returned in the afternoon to collect my progress report (My dad sent me to school)

Studied with Dorothy Ng @ Serene Centre, and then went to meet Kimberley and Stacy before meeting Mark and Jicai,

Had a veryyyy fun time with all of them at NEX, had a great dinner and a great time playing Monopoly Deal, in which I did not win a single game :'(

I have 'O' level drama tmrw, so I think I'm going to sign off now.

Bye!